"It's okay. I don't know why I just told you all of that." Sehun said. He was looking at his hand that I had just subconsciously touched.
Stupid stupid stupid Jongin! Why the fuck did I just touch him. He's straight. He's probably freaked out. I wanted to bang my head against the table. What on earth possessed me to do that.
It was sweet that he opened up to me a little. It warmed up my heart even if he said it without thinking twice. He looked so hurt and I wanted to be the one he comes to. He doesn't deserve the pain.
"Err, it's Ok I won't to tell anyone so if you want to talk about it, I’m all ears." Talking about ears I bet mine were very red at that moment out of embarrassment.
"No, it's been a good day I don’t want to spoil it with my sob story." He smiled weakly at me. Not realising what it was doing to my heart.
It was slowly turning dark the sky was a beautiful shade of blue and purple. The air was calm around us, young couples walking hand in hand exiting the theme park. We walked back to his car after fighting over who's paying for the ice cream and candy floss.
We decided it was too early to go home so we sat leaning against Sehun car in the car park, watching the sun set and eating our candy floss. It felt almost too perfect. Like a scene from a teenage drama.
It may not be much but something about this felt so right. Something about this made me feel like I was on cloud nine.
"So, when did you realise you were gay?" Sehun asked interrupting my thoughts, he glanced at me, baby blue candy floss in between his slender fingers.
"hmm, I guess I always kind of knew." It was something obvious, I never really cared about girls while I was going through puberty. Boys always seem to interest me more.
" Oh cool, I didn't realise I was bisexual until I thought Minho from Shinee was the hottest thing ever to exist." He chuckled. I was too fixated on his laugh to realise what he had just said.
"Wait what?! You-You're bi?"
Was I hearing things? Did he just say he’s bisexual?
"Yeah. I mean I like girls a lot but I also like guys... a lot." A thousand thoughts crossed my mind. This is my chance. Maybe having a crush on him isn't a bad idea. Maybe this won't be an unrequited love. Shall I make moves on him? I'm not very good at flirting. Hmm maybe I should Google how to flirt or buy flirting for dummies.
"Actually, I think I fancy a guy in our school." He said smiling softly at his sticky fingers.
Oh fuck well there goes that.
"Oh err, who. Wow that sounds really nosy you don't have to answer that." I laughed nervously turning my head away from him trying to hide the blush that was creeping on to my cheeks.
“Just some guy. It might be just a silly little crush.”
“oh.” I didn’t know what else to say. It’s weird but I felt upset. I kept telling myself not to get my hopes up but, he’s just so dreamy. Stupid lucky shit whoever that guy is.
“well its almost 9pm. Should we head back.”
The sky was now a deep blue and millions of stars scattered the sky like diamonds of all sizes. It was an amazing sight and I wasn’t surprised when I looked over at Sehun, he was staring at the sky just like I had been doing. His eyes like crescents, glistening with the reflection of the beauty before him.
“Yeah. But let’s do this again sometime. I know we may not be the best of friends. Fuck that, I still hate you. Okay fine I don’t hate you anymore but, you’re not too bad I guess that’s what I’m trying to say. Don’t get too happy fucktard, you’re still a brat.”
I frowned then laughed then frowned again.
Gosh this guy made me feel all types of emotions in just one minute. That’s when I realised, I was falling for him even more.
Fuck.
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AUTHORS NOTE/QUESTION.
was this chapter too short? Let me know in the comments, I just wanted to say thank you aswell for the love and support 💕
