<Pretend that they're speaking in Korean!!!!!!!! Enjoy!!! Oh and pretend that Jin has a lot of lines in their music!!!>
Jin's pov.
'Everybody say NO!
It can't be any later
Don't be trapped in someone else's dream
We roll, we roll, we roll!
Everybody say NO!
It has to be now or never
We still haven't done anything
We roll, we roll, we roll!'
I sing into the microphone, pouring all of my hearts pain out as best as I can. It's getting harder and harder for me to ignore Namjoon and his girl...
All of a sudden the music stops, and so do I, but I'm confused. I didn't even get to finish my part.
"Seokjin, why are you crying?" My hands go up to my face and feel wetness. 'Since when did I start crying?' I wipe the tears away quickly and sniffle.
"Umm, it's nothing, I don't even know why I'm crying honestly...I guess this song just brings out my emotions," He looks at me with worry
"Seokjin, if anything is going on please don't hesitate to tell me, you know I treat you like a son," he reassured me but I stayed quiet, he'd freak out if I told him that I'm gay. Especially since I'm in a group, a very popular group, my coming out would only just put us in jeopardy.
"Nothing's wrong PD-nim, I'm fine, it's just the song...it gets to me that's all." He didn't smile, just nodded and left the room I was in and went back into the recording room. He signaled to me to get ready to sing again...can my heart really take this much pain?
-TIME SKIP!-
I look up from my food and see Joon with his girl, he doesn't seem to take a liking to her, is he gay too? Now that I go back with the memories I've had of those two being together, I've never really actually seen them hug, or kiss, nor have I heard anything dirty from them (lol in bed XD). I think Joon might be gay, but
he'd never admit to it, especially since he doesn't want to put BTS in a bad spot too. I have to know if he's gay or not, if I don't, how will I ever know if I can date my Joonie anytime soon. 'I'll sing him a song! But which one? I want to sing him a song that is English, but which one!!!!? Aish!' I hit my head with my fist repeatedly and didn't notice that someone had grabbed my wrist.
"Jin? You okay? Why are you hitting your head?" 'Oh god Joon is so close to me, kiss him! No wait! Not yet'
"I umm, can't really think of a song to sing, I want it to be English so that way I can..learn more," I lie.
"Oh! Well I recommend Mirrors by Justin Timberlake, you know him?"
"Oh yeah! I do! I've only heard like one song though from him," I sigh and hit my head again. He laughs,
"No need to hit your head Jinnie!" He ruffles my hair and we suddenly stare at each other for about two minutes...this is probably the longest two minutes of my life, staring into my crush's beautiful brown/hazel eyes. We start leaning towards each other, 'oh please! Kiss me Namjoon! Kiss me already!!'
"Joonie!!!?? Where are you babe?" A loud annoying voice pierces the silence. 'Really? That skank had to ruin this special moment? Wait a minute...Namjoon and I...we had a moment. A freaking moment!!! This just proves me right! He is gay! I mean, he was leaning in too! Right? Oh but I would kill for a
kiss from him right about now. Hopefully I get one soon when we're alone again.' I shake out of my trance from the door closing, and I don't see Namjoon anymore.
~TIME SKIP~
(<>= through call)
<Hey! Jin-hyung,
you coming to the
party?>
<Umm, I don't
know Yoongi
I really don't feel like
going>
<oh c'mon! Don't
be such a
party pooper! Namjoon
is gonna be there~~>
<really?! He's
going? Are you sure?>
<Yes I'm sure
Jin-hyung, but
also know that his
girlfriend is
gonna be there too
k?>
<yes I do know
about that...>
<who cares
anyways, just have
some fun Jin-hyung!
Stop being cooped
up at the studio!>
<Aish! Fine fine,
I'll be there in fifteen
minutes. I'm
already throwing on
my shoes>
<ok great!
Hurry up old man!>
<Hey! I'm not old!
I'm just slowly aging ok?>
<whatever you say
old man. See ya in
a few then! Annyeong!>
<Annyeong!>
*ends phone call*
'Looks like I'm going to the party after all, hopefully we get a moment again, and this time we'll get to kiss.' I smile widely and get outta the studio quick.
~TIME SKIP~
"Jin-hyung!!!! Hold tthhhi-is puleassseee,"
"Yoongi, you're drunk, stob it!" He started laughing and rolling on the floor. 'Really Yoongi? Aish!' He got up and vomited all over the floor, "Min Yoongi! Get up!" I take his arm and pull him up. "C'mon Yoongi, help me out here," I start dragging him to a bathroom and leave him in there, I start walking away until I heard a familiar voice. Two familiar voices.
"J-Hope, what are you talking about? That's crazy!"
"Namjoon, I'm being for real, he really likes you! I just want to know one thing though, do you like him back? Are you gay too?" This is great! I finally get to know if he has any feelings for me!
I start peeking through the door with high hopes.
"J-Hope, I don't like Jin that way, it just means I'm not gay at all. I have zero interest in him, he's like a brother to me and you know that. I have a girlfriend and I love her,"
"Oh ok then, I thought you were gay because well you're different around Jin and you don't seem to like Soomi that much."
"Hobi, for the last time, I'm not gay I will never be gay for anyone. I don't like Jin like that, I never have and never will, ok?"
"Ok then, just asking is all."
I ran away...I felt my heart shatter into a million little pieces. He isn't gay at all, so that little moment we had, meant nothing to him. But it meant something to me, it meant that we had some hope to be in a relationship together. Obviously, it's not true....Namjoon isn't gay.
"Hey Jin-hyung! Where are you going?" I stumbled upon Hobi.
"I really don't wanna talk right now Hobi, move aside please." I went around him and left the party, but before I could enter my car,
"Jinnie, leaving early? Why? Aren't you having fun?"
"I just, I wanna get home and catch up on some sleep that's all," I say trying to reassure Joonie. "Why don't you uh, go back to your girlfriend? She's probably waiting on you, plus you don't want her to think that you're gay right?" I say with anger laced in my tone.
"What are you talking about Jin?"
"Nothing, just go please, I really don't want to start a conversation with you." I say as I step into my car with tears going down my cheeks.
I hate you Namjoon-ah, I hate you...
(Part 2 coming soon!!)
