Hi I'm Kenzie Edwards, 17, I have blue/green eyes, I'm 5'3, I have auburn brown hair that goes to my belly button, I'm a Viner & YouTuber-I make beauty videos, I live in Nebraska, I have a bad past, and I'm joining Magcon with my best friend Taylor Caniff and Mahogany LOX.
I woke up to my alarm clock on my phone, I grabbed it and went on all my social media sites then tweeted before getting up
@kenziemaemarie: Ahh I'm so excited to meet all my beautiful viewers😘 see y'all in Chicago!!!☺️
I got up and walked over to my closet grabbing my outfit, I walked to the bathroom and changed into a 'Nashty' baseball tee, black leggings, and vans. I brushed through my straight hair and put it in a messy bun and I just skip the makeup, I walked out and made sure I had everything then headed to the airport for Chicago... About 4 hours later I got there and drove to the the hotel. I met the boys before so I know all of them.
"WASSUP BITCHES!" I yelled trying not to giggle but I did anyway, they all said hey to me
"So what should we do?" Cameron asked looking at all of us since the first day is tomorrow we had a day to do whatever we wanted
"Let's go swim or somethin" Nash said I looked down knowing I can't go swimming because of my scars, Mahogany looked over at me with worried eyes
"I can't..." I said looking down again not trying to cry, but it didn't work a couple tears streamed down my cheek, Mahogany walked over to me and hugged me, everyone else looked confused and lost
"Do you trust them?" She whispered in my ear I shook my head yes, I stopped crying
"So Kenzie has something to tell us..." Mahogany said
"So umm the reason I can't go swimming is..... I self harm...." I whispered the last part
"Why?" Cam asked
"I guess I'll you guys my story" I took a deep breath before beginning "I've been bullied my whole life, it all started in 6th grade, it wasn't bad just the once a week getting shoved into my locker type of thing, then 7th grade came around, I thought everything was going to be okay, but it wasn't I would come home from school and cry, I started cutting in the middle of 7th grade and then I just stopped and forgot about it" I was lightly crying now "8th grade was the worst year I was called fat and ugly it made me depressed and sad that's when I had my first suicide thought I planned it all out, I was about ready to take the pills and my best friend Abby called me, she basically saved my life and doesn't know it, 9th came everything in the beginning was perfect people were telling me I looked skinnier and about 2 months into school it all went down hill people started calling me fat and short and stupid and worthless" I was full on crying "I started to actual cut and it got worse I made everyone deeper and deeper hoping something would actually happen but nothing would and it didn't help, I started having panic attacks and I became more depressed but nothing at the time was helping me, 10th grade came and I found YouTube and vine it made me happy I told my viewers my story and they all support me and now I'm here 5months clean of cutting" I wiped the tears away and looked up to see everyone was crying
"C-can I see your scars?" Nash asked really shaky so I stood up and slid my leggings off they all looked at them with hurt in there eyes, Matt rubbed his fingers on the white faded lines. I let everyone look at them one more time before putting my leggings on, they all gathered around me and gave me a group hug, we all jwhipped away the tears and headed to Taco Bell to get our mind off of everything, once we got there, this girl was waiting when she noticed us walking so ran over to Matt and attacked his face with kisses. Eww gross! We got food and headed to the hotel
"Let's watch some movies" Mahogany said laying on her bed so we all agreed so I changed into a unicorn onesie and Mahogany put on her zebra onesie, I laid on my bed and cuddled into Mahogany I started feeling sleepy when we got to the 4th movie, my eye lids got heavier each minute then I finally let sleep take over
