Kenzie's POV
I felt someone move around, so I opened my eye to see Cam moving
"Oh sorry babe I didn't mean to wake up." He said then gave me a kiss on the cheek
"It's fine... I need to get ready for the day" I gave him a peck on the lips then walking over to my suitcase; grabbed my clothes and headed to the bathroom. I changed into a black sweatshirt, chevron hot pink leggings, and black vans; I put my hair in a fishtail braid & for makeup mascara and eyeliner. I walked and over to my bag put my clothes away; then took a picture and tweeted
@kenziemaemarie: Day 1💚 pic.twi.com
"Hey babe I got you this for your birthday!" He hands me a little purple unicorn and a infinity necklace. I thanked him and gave him a kiss; After everyone got ready when headed to the breakfast area to eat, a girl walked over to Cam and gave him a hug, ugh freaking Morgan Demeola, why is she here then next thing I know he kisses her; I back away and run at side to the park across the street. I didn't want to cry but tears started to fall, why would he do that when he told me he loved me? I was looking at a picture of us before I got a text from Taylor
From Taylor😜
Aye bae where are you at? The event is about to start and Cam is worried
To Taylor😜
I'm somewhere and why would he care he has Morgan🔫
After that I didn't reply from his text, I decided to go walk around the city and just think.
She didn't kiss him, he kissed her but we're dating
Am I not good enough for him?
Did I do something wrong?
Was this going on before we started dating?
Questions were running through my head, I noticed there was a Starbucks so I walked over there and got a hot chocolate, while waiting I went to the bathroom and cleaned my makeup before anyone would notice. When I walked out all the boys were there including Cam and Morgan, good thing I had my sweatshirt on and made my Starbucks name Le;a I always tell them fake names. I walk over and grab it then head for the door, I was about half way when I hear Cam said he loved Morgan and Taylor noticed; he turned pale and all the boys noticed and turned around to see me cry by the doorway and Cam looked shocked. I turned away and ran out the door, I could tell someone was chasing after me; stupid me decided to look back but it was just Taylor, I stopped and he took me into a hug. He tried to keep me calm but I couldn't
"T-Taylor am I not good enough for him?" Right as I said that I got a text from Cam
From Cameron😍
I'm sorry but I think we should break up.... I'm sorry
I decided not to reply and I cried into Taylor chest more, he picked me and carried me bridal style to the hotel. We walked to the room in silence then we got there I ran to my suitcase grabbed clothes and my makeup bag, then went to the bathroom and locked myself in there
~this might trigger some people with self harming so if you wanna skip this you can~
I undressed and went through my makeup bag grabbing my razor, I started the water and just sat down; I brushed over the faded white lines. Taking the razor and going over my skin, winching at first but kept doing it til I had a total of 7 fresh cuts, I started to cry as they burned; I heard the hotel door open and close the boys are back and I heard Matt ask where I was, Taylor said I locked myself in the bathroom.
"Kenzie come out please" I just staid quite, but I let the water drain and got out put a tank top and shorts on; I sat on the floor grabbing the razor, making more cuts, I began to think of my past and started to cry loudly
"Kenzie, babe, unlock the door please!" Taylor yelled, I looked down at my thigh there was a lot if blood then I started to feel light headed, the smart person I am I decided to stand up, I fell back down which made a big thud. The door flung opened and stood a very pale Taylor
"K-Kenzie!" He said laying down next to me not caring about getting blood on him, he was whispering stuff in my ear while cleaning the cuts, I started to cry knowing I hurt both Mahogany and Taylor. Once Taylor was done he picked me up and carried me to his bed.
"Get some sleep babe you need it and just remember you are beautiful Kenzie" everyone else went to bed while I stared at the ceiling not trying to cry so I wouldn't wake anyone up
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So sorry for not updating I've been busy with the play and track and school but I'm done with track an the play so I'll be updating more!
Sorry if you didn't like the whole self harm thing I just want everyone to know that they are beautiful no matter what and I've gone through the same thing so don't think I don't understand
Taylor and Kenzie are just best friends nothing more
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