I Was Once Loved

chapter 1

" Get down this instant!!!...you know mother forbid us from going up there" I half yelled. But Rayyan is still standing on the balcony rail giggling. I took a step forward to grab her before she fall.

"Rayyan get down here you will fall. She started walking on the rail still laughing. When i took another step further she lost her balance on the rail, i stretch my hand to grab her but i was too late she fell already.

She screamed my name i ran immediately to the rail, i started screaming and crying calling her name calling my mother. My mother rushed in immedietely in shock asking what happened.

"Mother its Ra-yy-aan i stuttered pointing to the balcony rail. She reached the rail almost falling down. " Moram what have you done...moram what have you done she kept repeating those words screaming , crying , yelling....Ya Allah moram...she ran down stairs still crying and repeating those words.

I could here people talking some shouting for ambulance. My breathing started seizing. My head hurts. I start to shake still crying. My words are gone. My throat dry. Still lying on the balcony floor, I couldn't move. I am still shaking.
   "Moran! Moram! " Wake up. Wake up".
  You were crying and screaming again in your sleep you scared me". Noor said in a shaky voice she is crying also.
   " I don't think she will ever forgive me and i know I won't be able to forgive myself also" I said shaking in Noor's arm.
  "Moram it was fourteen years ago you were just seven...there was nothing you could have done" Her eyes still in tears

  "Can't you see Noor that mother still can't forgive me, she still hates me, father would have believed me, he would have understood that i also loved Rayyan, he would have understood that I tried to save her despite the fact that I failed he would have...I know he would have" .......I stated with quivering lips.
  "Shh..shhh...its okay, it will be fine insha Allah". She wraps her arms around me rocking me back and fort.
   We sat that way for minutes
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What time is it " I asked
  She took her phone from under her pillow and checked the time. "Its 3am...do you want something to eat?? You know you went to bed early i know you must be hungry"
  "Yes I think I will just get some sandwich its late" I whisper
  She smiles " Okay let's go downstairs I am farmish.
   I chuckled at her and crawl out of bed.

Noor is my cousin and also my bestfriend, she is the only daughter of uncle munir my mother's elder brother. We have been friends since we were little  She always stays the weekend in our house, sometimes the whole week.
    "I miss him so much " I whisper
"Huh??" She turned towards me with her legs folded on the couch
   "My dad, I miss him, I always wake him up at 3Am just to eat donut, mother always gets mad, she will sometimes hide the donuts in the cabinets before going to bed. But we will still find it". I smile recalling all those memories.
   Noor nodded her head smiling also " I miss him to Moram, remember the time i was here and you never want to wake up at night because you don't want me to go to your little donut date?"...
   " You always eat the donuts more than I do" I accused but  laughing. She started laughing also.
  
We sat quiet for some minutes before getting up both at once...we both looked at each other and smiled sadly before heading upstairs. I turn off the side lamp and whispered
"Goodnight Noori"
"Goodnight mora" She murmured and I knew she has already started falling asleep. I close my eyes just hoping for the sleep to do me a favour and take me also before my disastrous day begin...

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