_Isle of Flightless Birds_ (Joshler)

Am I Real?

(josh's pov)

I wake up shaking and startled as I look around the room for the sound that awoke me. Crash. I hear it again and I look towards my door. I feel a cold bead of sweat trickle down my back as I get out of my bed and begin walking toward my bedroom door. When I heard my mother scream, I froze. I was petrified. "M-Mommy?" I was somehow able to call out. Silence. All I heard after the deafening silence was running footsteps towards my door. I felt the tears well up in my eyes and it wasn't long before I was sobbing. "Don't you fucking touch him!" I heard my mother yell before someone was beating on my door with utmost vigor. It was starting to come off of its hinges. I couldn't move. "JOSHUA!!!"

I screamed and shot up in my bed. I was cold with sweat all over my body.

"Josh!", my mother called, "You're going to be late!"

Shit, I thought. "I can't be late if I don't go!" I replied.

She laughed and said "Unacceptable! Get your ass down here!" I groaned out loud and stretched my limbs. I decided to take a quick shower because of the sweat. Wait...What was I dreaming about? I was thinking about this the whole time I was getting ready. When I laced up my shoes I decided to just leave it. Maybe it'll come back on its own. I settled for some black skinny jeans and a black t-shirt and some black converse. I-I like that color, in case you didn't get that. But, I love the color red. Since I wanted to make a good impression today I just...decided to go with black to be safe. Anyways, as I was walking down the stairs, a wave of deliciousness hit me in the face and I almost tripped accelerating my pace to find out what it was. As I turned the corner, my stomach growled as I saw what my mom was cooking. Omlettes, hashbrowns, pancakes, and-...Are...Are those fucking smoothies??? "Oh, momma. You have out done yourself, yet again! Good God!"

"I wanted you to have a good start today. To have 'good vibes' as you kids call it." She said over her shoulder.

"Jeez, we need to move more often!" she chuckled and slid my plate over. My mouth was a fountain as I examined the food. I didn't even hesitate to eat it. Once I was done, I had got a bad case of  hiccups before Momma finally handed me my smoothie after having a giggle fit. I was about to a big gulp before I halted and looked dead at her.

"Mom *hic* Are there *hic*.....Did you put bananas in the smoothie?" I questioned.

"I wouldn't do that!.....or would i?" She whispered the last part under her breath.

"What'd you say?", I asked curiously. "Nothing! Nothing....Enjoy your smoothie, sweetheart." I shrugged and drank it anyways.

"Okay, well, I'm off!" I said. "See you later, Momma!" I grabbed the keys and my smoothie and headed out. New school. Okay. Nothing to be afraid of. Just...people...that you don't know...okay fuck im really scared rn. Okay, let me just say that I may have serious anxiety problems. Sometimes it's more manageable than other times and sometimes I just need to cry a little. But, in this case it's through the fucking roof. Because this is the first time we've moved to anywhere! Ever! Like, I don't know anyone! Or anything about this town or city! What if I'm late? What if there's a pop quiz? What if I fall and everyone laughs? What if there's a secret agency coming to the school to murder everybody except me and they keep me for terrible science  experiments?!?! Okay, maybe that last one was a tiny bit far-fetched, but it could happen!

I sighed and pulled up to the school. I parked my car and sat back in my seat, debating on whether I should just go already or skip all my classes and say I went. No. I have to do this for her. I inhaled then exhaled, got my stuff, and got out of the car. I walked into the building and looked at my watch. Dammit, I'm late! How long was I in the car procrastinating??? I groaned and looked at my schedule sheet then, looked around in the hallway. Room 2-D...2-D...Aha! I found the door and knocked three times before entering the room. As expected, all eyes were on me and I was already shaking. I looked to who looked like the teacher and asked,    "H-Hey, um, my name is Joshua Dun. I-I'm a new student. Am I in the right room?". The teacher raised his eyebrows and made an 'o' shape with his mouth and replied, "Right, I almost forgot. Class, this is our new student, Joshua."

"Oh, y-you can just call me Josh." I laughed nervously and looked towards the students. I found a familiar pair of eyes among them. The boy who lives next to me is in one of my classes! Yes! I looked back at the teacher expecting him to give me a seat. "Ah, yes! You can sit in the seat behind Frank." I looked towards the seat and noticed the boy he must've been talking about. Nice tattoos....kinda cute too, I thought as I made my way over there and sat down. I bit my lip and glanced to where my neighbor was sitting and as I expected he was looking at me to. I sighed and looked away. I had to get to know him somehow....I mean, we're neighbors but, I don't think he's noticed yet. But, how would you not notice someone moving in next door to you??? Am I that insignificant? I mean, I know I am but, like....what the hell...Am I invisible? No, that can't be it, because I can still feel his eyes lingering on me. I look up to see him still trying to discreetly stare at me. I smirk and shake my head. He blushes and looks away, leaving me a smiling mess. God, I have got to get to know him. He's interesting. And he's obviously interested in me...but...why? Nobody has ever paid this much attention to me....There has to be a logical explanation. Maybe he was just lost in thought...or maybe I am invisible...Am I even real? What if I'm just a figment of his imagination?? What if I'm a ghost and only he can see me? I shook my head and rubbed my temples. I was getting way too worked up over this. Maybe he just....wants to be my friend? Yeah, a friend. That's nice. I nodded and smiled to myself. I am going to make a friend. That's pretty cool.