Heal my broken heart (jaegan fanfic)

High enough to forget

*Justin's POV*

"R-Raegan... please don't do this... you are all I have! You are the only thing that makes me happy! You leaving is my happiness leaving!" I yelled through the phone as a few broken sounding sobs came out of me.

"I'm sorry Justin... maybe we will get back forget one day but I just need to be alone.. I hope you understand.." raegan said in a shaky sounding voice. I shook my head.

"No... I-I don't understand... I never will. Good bye raegan." And with that, I hung up.

Crying was all I could do as I laid there all alone in my room.? You kid was the absolute worst day of my life. I can't believe this... I thought we would be forever! I guess Not.

A few days prior to this I remember a few of my friends offering to get lit with me and I turned it down. The idea of filling my lungs with smoke from a plant made me cringe. But then again.. it isn't any better than cutting my arms.

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It's been two weeks since raegan and I have broken up. It's also been two weeks since I've left my house.

I was sick of being so sad! I hate it!

Looking down at my phone, I went through my contacts and say my friend tish. I know she has access to things and she had always offered whenever I needed anything if I ever did, to let her know. I guess today is that day...

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"It's easy, just put it up to your lips and inhale, then hold it in for a second and let it out." Tish told me as I looked at her and maya with a concerned face. "Maya... I'll only do it if you do" I told her as we both agreed.

Taking it in between my lips I inhaled the disgusting smoke, held it, and released letting myself cough. To be honest it wasn't that bad.

It seemed as if every one of my problems faded away with each puff of the smoke. I felt more relaxed and all together felt better.

It was almost as if I had forgotten about everything that caused me troubles including raegan and only felt silly and happy.

My phone went off and of course it was raegan, I decided to accept it. It was a face time.

Raegan gave me an odd look as he heard us all laughing. I looked at the phone. "The fuck do you want bih?" I asked as we laughed.

He gave a questionable laugh "just wanted to check up on you jay... are you alright? Have you been crying? Your eyes look pretty red" he told me as I left out a laugh.

"Calm down rae, I'm fine. Just a little tired." I lied as I took another puff, moving the phone so he couldn't see it as we all laughed.

I looked at the phone "listen. You broke up with me. I need to get over that. So do you. Let me mourn the loss of my happiness on my own. Mk raegan? Bye" and with that, I hung up

Time to get high enough to forget about him.

The rest of the night was filled with laughs and a lot of hot boxing the basement.

I wasn't sure if I was gonna be too happy with my decisions later on but.. maybe i should only worry about what happens right now.

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