Heal my broken heart (jaegan fanfic)

smoke and drink

*Raegan's POV*

from there everything just got insane.

the next thing i knew i was sitting in tish's basement surrounded by about ten other people i didn't even know and a lot of illegal substances scattered around the room.

i didn't know what to do.

that's when everything just got ten million times worse from there, justin and maya walked in.

the second justin's eyes met mine, i felt like everything in me just dropped to the floor. no. that's not right. more like everything in me got thrown onto the floor with a lot of force. it was bad.

justin started to get really mad. he started pushing me and yelling.

"WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU HERE?!?ARE YOU TRYING TO PROTECT ME LIKE IM SOME LITTLE KID? this is MY life raegan, not yours!!!" justin screamed at me, making my got completely white. i was terrified.

i had never seen justin angry in my life.

especially not like this.

tish came over and calmed justin down. "woah woah woah, jay don't worry! he's here with me." she then continued to explain that i was cool and nothing to worry about.

this calmed justin down but he was clearly still skeptical.

that's when everything got way way worse, if that's even possible.

tish got out weed and everyone was smoking it. justin turned to me with a devious smile on his face.

"okay raegan, if you truly are here to have a good time and not just to watch me... then take a few hits." he told me.

tish started laughing "ha! that won't be s problem! raegan won't care" she said, defending me as she handed me what looked like a cigarette but definitely wasn't.

i took a deep breath, this is the only way that i will be able to convince them that i truly am on their side, even if i'm not.

taking it to my lips, i inhaled a breath of the thick smoke and held it in for a few seconds, blowing it out right after.

tish started smiling "that's my boy" she said with pride written across her face.

justin's face changed, he almost looked concerned or alarmed. usually this is when i would talk to him and try to help him like i originally said... but my body had something else in mind.

hit after hit after hit i continued to smoke weed with the others and all of my problems started to fade away. all of my stresses faded too.

it was almost as if the fact that i was here to help justin just wiped from my mind. i stopped having to fake having fun cause truly i was starting to.

i didn't know where the real me started and this new version of me ended.

next thing i knew, alcohol was brought to the party, and lots and lots of it.

maya offered me some but justin spoke for me and said "oh no, raegan doesn't drink. he's against it."

he was right, usually i was. but not tonight. not at all.

i don't know why but i started laughing as i rolled my eyes, i was acting so different than the usual me.

"oh justin. you must not know anything about me if you think that." i told him as i took the bottle out of maya's hand and started to chug it. i chugged half of the bottle and swallowed it fast so i didn't have time to taste how gross it was.

i started to heat people cheer for me, was i doing something right? i don't know. all i know is that i started to cheer too. everything i was doing just wasn't things i stood for and things i would do, but i was. and for some reason...

i liked it... a lot.

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*Justin's POV*

raegan is starting to really concern me..

throughout our whole relationship he told me how his family had problems with addiction so he didn't stand for people who drank and used drugs as depressants and would never do it.

but raegan was here at tish's party, with her, and he was doing just that.

it was kind of scary. seeing someone i've known for so long acting so different.

i know that i shouldn't care about raegan or feel like i should be watching out for him but i still was and i couldn't stop. i was worried about him.

maya judged me, shaking me out of my thoughts and making me look at her.

she gave me a kind of concerned look. "hey jay, are you ok?" she asked me.

i nodded in response. "yea, i just need another drink, i'll be right back." i told her, she just nodded to me.

that's when i took raegan by his arm and pulled him aside for a moment.

that's also when i truly saw what was happening to him...

raegan's hair was a bit disheveled but not too bad. he had bloodshot eyes and rosy cheeks which i will admit is very cute but it just wasn't him.

he reeked of weed and alcohol as he stood there with a cup of something in one of his hands.

"r-raegan... w-why are you doing this?" i asked him, i didn't realize how shaky my voice was. was i scared? no i couldn't be scared... worried? sympathetic? i don't know any more... i just wasn't okay.

but that's nothing new.

raegan furrowed his eyebrows. "what do you mean? calm down jay. your so worried." he told me in a semi-mono times voice which was so un-like him.

"raegan.. this isn't right.. this isn't you. you hate drinking and smoking!" i told him, trying to get through to him that i was worried and that he wasn't himself.

raegan chuckled "jay, you did too. people change. it's life. you gotta deal with it. plus, you told me not to talk to you. it's fineeee" he slurred some of his words, god was he out of it.

that's when i heard tish's voice from behind me, she had her arms crossed too. this can't be good.

"justin. what are you doing?" she asked.

i gotta make up a lie... crap..

"oh, i was just asking rae what he was drinking cause it looks goodddd" i slurred my last word, acting more drunk than i actually was.

honestly i barely had any alcohol or substance in me yet but she didn't have to know that.

tish laughed in response, good, she believes me.

"oh okay!! why didn't you say so? it's in the kitchen in the blue bottle. oh and by the way, i invited that cute guy you are gonna tour with, tyler. he'll be here soon." she told me.

that's when everything clicked.

tyler could just be my way out of this mess.

if i fake being in love with him and stuff, maybe i can get raegan jealous and he will come back to me and stop being the way he is!

then everything might go back to normal

i can stop doing these things that i hate, and we can all be happy again!

plus the fandom will be happy too.

i smirked to raegan and then to tish "i can't wait." i said in anticipation as i walked out of the room and into the kitchen.