Life Unpredictable

Chapter 1

I am a coward...

I have always been one...

I am good at pretending though, if I was not studying to be a doctor I would have done well as an actor.

I hide behind a façade each day fooling my family, my friends and all around me.

To them I am outgoing, boisterous, suave and charming personality, a modern male, a good son, a good student, a good friend,... a fine specimen who everyone wants.

This is until he stepped into life...

He tore down all my walls one by one laying me bare and raw.

And I couldn't take it...

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It has never happened to me before. I am lucky enough to be born with good.. no exquisite features owing to both the Thai and Chinese genes in my family and though I may not be muscular or tall but have a good physic which earned me flocks of girls since high school.

One night stands are like any other physical activity to me; I have never turned down a willing partner.

Well don't blame me... I have never thought my life would be this way.

I was a sickly child since birth, with my asthma and weak constitution I needed constant care and attention. Both my parent doted on me even my older brother. They spoiled me rotten until an incident which turned my life upside down. I would have died that night if not for my father... But that's a story for another day.

Things started changing for the better as adolescence hit me. The attacks slowly receded, my lanky features filled out and I became stronger. I went from being cute to handsomely attractive. And life was good for I had found the means to hide my guilty self.

I never wished to be tied down... never wanted emotions... until the incident at Lam's place...

I tried hard so hard to get Forth out of my head and heart. I could not think of anything other than the ragged handsome face, those big hands, broad shoulders and those piercing eyes that gaze into your very soul. He made to want to change and that's what scared me the most.

And I made a mistake, a mistake so grave that it cost me everything......

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