Morgan's Life

Reality

Here lately I've been punishing myself. For his mistake that are letting my self stay down. It's brought me to a point that I would never consider being at. Self harm, that's how bad it got. It took me for a loop. Then I had a brave person/love one that guided me for the past couple of days and help me. She had faith in me when I didn't have faith in myself.  she's the reason why I'm here today. Her light has made a huge impact on my life. Rainy is my guardian angel. Sometimes I think God put Rainy in this world to be my guardian angel to watch over me because he has a plan for me. I've learned that I have to be strong for her. She shouldn't have to take care of her older sister Everytime I go off the deep end . Had a lot of permanent role models in my life but I never chosen to listen to any of them. I wanted to do what I wanted to do. But Rainy told my one night that she needs her sister. That's what led to recovery. Yeah I did hurt myself and I did feel the pain but I did something way worse. I let my sister whach me go through that. That's when it kicked in. I realized that my dad may not ever want to be a part of my life that's okay. I'm not afraid anymore. Yeah I'm a little hurt by it still but I'm strong. And it was because no matter how I feel or what I wanted to do I knew in my heart at least that I had one person standing by me.