FATE'S

CHAPTER 1

Complex

'but Thia you think it's worth it?'

'Aiegh susubukan ko lang naman, I really want to have it that way.'

Nakitaan ko siya ng hinagpis at unti unting panlulumo ng nakitang pinal na ang desisyon ko. Bahagya niyang binalik sa backrest ng sofa ang likod at matamlay akong tinitigan, nag iisip ng ibang paraan para pigilan ako sa sinabi niyang kahibangan ko.

'You really think papayagan ka ng parents mo? my gosh? Thia Sapphire Dela Flor, the daughter of a business tycoon and a very in demand fashion designer in Asia, magtatrabaho sa ibang kompanya? Could you imagine tita's reaction? and your dad Thia! Tito will probably freak out. Kahit ilang dekada ka pang hindi magtrabaho mabubuhay ka pa ring marangya sa pera pa lang ng pamilya mo tapos you'll work under somebody's company? You will seriously look miserably pathetic in the eyes of everyone!'

I rolled my eyes after hearing her sentiments, of course she'll say that. Kahit sino naman siguro sasabihing nahihibang na ako but this time I'm certain about this.

I'd love to manage my mom's clothing line since it is suited to my degree and I believe everyone's expecting for me to do that yet this is not just the right time yet.

I just can't easily grab the opportunity my parents would offer siguro noon, when I was still a kid and I was the perfect definition of the word 'brat' susunggaban ko lahat ng pagkakataon as long as it's easy and in my favor but everything change and even my perceptions would change too.

Kung noon lagi kung iniisip ang mga bagay na hindi ako mahihirapan, mga bagay na madali lang ngayon parang pinaglalaruan ako ng tadhana dahil pilit kong ginugusto ang mga bagay na kailanman ay hinding hindi ko magugustuhan noon.

I am a brat and I could get whatever I want just that but turning into a lady I am now, I don't know which is safe to say, kung lumaki ba akong responsable because my parents have feed me all the ethics I will be needing or I am turned this way dahil sa  kasalanang ginawa ko.

Maybe the very reason why I always want to oppose fate is because it's never been in my side. Kahit gaano kami kayaman, kahit lahat ng bagay nakukuha ko fate would always have its way to against me and the sin I did before was fate's, the fate let it happen and even if I suffered hard enough after that I didn't feel like I've already paid.

'Thia!'

I was back in my senses when Aiegh's voice echoed in our mansion, one housemaid has stop to glance our way then finally resume walking upstairs when she noticed nothing's wrong.

Binaling ko ang tingin kay Aiegh and caught her rolling her eyes heavenwards.

So I am spacing out again...

'Aiegh I guess it's just right and it is my right to decide for my own too--'

'Oh? Kailan ka pa nagkaroon ng karapatang magdesisyon para sa sarili mo? It's your parents that has a right to have a say in your life Thia and even when you reached your 18 before, it is not your choice that's being followed just so you know!'

I let out a heavy sigh after her protest, she's kinda right in that part. I guess that's another way of fate para ipakita ang napakalaking disgusto niya sa akin at sa lahat ng bagay na may kinalaman sa pagkatao ko.

'But my reason is pure and reasonable Aiegh, siguro naman panahon na para bigyan ng emphasis ang karapatan ko. After all it's still my life.'

I saw her frown and gesture for whatever.

'I hope I didn't knew your parents enough to believe your statement.'

At sa sinabi niya parang bumalik ako sa nakaraan, kung paano nanghihina ang loob ko sa tuwing pinagbabawalan ako, sa tuwing hindi nasusunod ang gusto ko. Kung paano kadali sabihin ang lumaban pero pag nasa mismong sitwasyon ka na , pag nakikita mong mas maraming tumututol sa gusto mo ang sakit pala, ang hirap palang tanggapin na talo ka. And I am experiencing that shit over and over again, that's why I'd want some change for the hope that eventually, the fate will be impressed and would let me get a life I want, that's if fate's first impression wouldn't last.