The darkest hour

First Chapter

Emily's POV

Back home, but I'm not ready yet! Besides the concert I almost saw nothing of New York, but unfortunately I don't have more money and anyways this is the last weekend of summer holidays. It was difficult enough to convince my parents to let me fly here to the concert and on top of that alone. But nobody else wanted to the open-air-concert of Black Hour and it's not that hard to book a flight with 17-years and to reserve a room in a motel over the Internet. Today it's very hot here in New York. On my way to JFK airport I fell the sun burn. I wish I could stay longer and drink something cold in a street cafe, discover the city on my one , go shopping and get cool stuff you don't find home in Philly. Later traveling south to Florida. Find lonely beaches and take a bath in the ozean.

In the evening eat fish in a small restaurant. I wouldn't mind being alone. Lost in thoughts I hum my favorite song from Black hour, I'm still amazed by the band. Since yesterday night I even fell a bigger connection to their music then before, every lyrics, every tone seems to express what I fell right now and for years. the longing for freedom, independence but also love which fits within these two thing. This kind of love has to exist! There can't be just one of those two things possible. The songs of Black hour alway tell about that kind of love and their I stood in this summer eve on this open-air-concert terrain and couldn't believe that these four boys from England described with their music exactly what I fell. The underground stops at the airport.

I get to the terminal and search the screens for my flight number, look for the right desk and place myself at the end of the long queue. There is no sense in wishing for a longer holiday, next year maybe after I graduate from high school. But now I must go home, school starts in three days. I search for my ticket in the back pack and keep it ready in my hand. it still takes some time until it's my turn but I feel safer if I already have found everything I need.

Back home, back to school. To school, where I will see Toby again, with whom I broke up at the beginning of summer break. Nobody understood why I didn't want to be together with him anymore, in school we were like the dream couple. But I already new for a long time that I had enough. I didn't want to be under his control any longer. Toby acted all the time like I was his possession and for me that had not much to do with love. He didn't care about me at all, the only one he cared about was himself. I was always supposed to have time for him, no matter how I felt or what I wanted to do. He decided what we did together, when we met, where we went of we slept at his or at me home or if we went home alone.

Our last afternoon together proofed me right. At that time I sometimes took care of the 2 year old Sean who lives next door. Till that point everything went alright, I really liked him and his mother was nice too. but on that day Sean fell of his bobby car in the garden and right on his face. His lip was bleeding and he also had wounds on his cheek and forehead and there was a big bump on his forehead. You could hear Sean's screams in the whole house. Although I was able to stop the bleeding really fast , I blamed myself. It wouldn't have happend if I would have paid attention instead of answering Toby SMS. When Sean mom came home she throw me out immediately. In the car I started crying because I was so angry at myself.

I still hadn't calmed down completely when I arrived at Toby's. He saw my tears and asked, what was wrong. But after I began to tell him what happend, he didn't listen instead he pulled my shirt of and started kissing my boobs. Than he grabbed my waist and pushed me onto his bed. "Don't talk about that weird kind, it doesn't matter", he says while he try's to pull of my jeans. "Now you are here with me that's everything that counts"

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Authors note:

Hey guys! :)

So this is my first book here on wattpad and I'm a bit nervous. First of all thank you for reading this story! What do you think of it so far? It would be really nice if you could give me a comment with feedback and vote if you like it so far. I decide to write the whole book in Emily's pov so you don't wonder.