Beneath the crown

chapter 1: The return

"I wonder if i should go back , and maybe give big brother a chance?"  I mumbled to myself as i sat on the grass. It was thick and plush like brand new carpet , Lovely for laying on in hot summer days.

"Maybe you should , You can't hide here forever ( Y/N ), they'll find you one day" called out Hiraku, looking out into the kingdom. Hiraku had a very built figure standing at 6'3. He has long black hair tied back in a plat. He had bright green eyes and nicely shaped eyebrows.

"You're only saying that because your my guard" I said in a rather harsh tone causing Hiraku to feel a little depressed as i had always treat him like a brother to me, since he was closer to me then my actual brothers

Grabbing my shoulder and turning my head Hiraku said reassuringly "No i said that because i'm your friend and i want what's best for you." I turned my head and rolled my eyes in disbelief in what he said . I wasn't aloud friends anyway, nor was i allowed to do anything fun.

I was the 1st princess of Clarines. The only thing i was aloud to do was learn how to be lady like and have marriage interviews. When i stopped to think about it carefully i started to think about what big brother zen felt when i left. And the boy i met on my travels..obi i think... he was lovely, even if his goal was to assassinate me...i wonder why he didn't in the end...i hope to see him again one day. Then my thoughts climbed back to zen..

"I hope he doesn't believe i left because of him."  I worried to myself, speaking in a quiet tone so Hiraku couldn't hear me.

I started to think about how much of a bad decision this was. I stood up in a determined position, looking over to Hiraku and putting on a straight face."I have made my decision , im going back to the castle and i won't run away again i promise!." i announced over to Hiraku.

He smiled at me in a confused yet proud look. I had one thought running through my mind. What will brother Izana do when i return?

I took a deep breath and started my journey back home. I had a lot of thoughts and feelings right now but i knew at this moment i couldn't turn back. I have to face my kingdom and the people in it. Including obi, zen and....Izana...

People always wonder why i ran away. It was because of all the stress. I couldn't handle everyone's expectations of me. I was grateful for what i'd been blessed with but i felt like my life wasn't my own. I needed to explore but that got me nowhere so its time to return. Maybe zen has finally found a noble. I heard he found a very lovely lady called Shirayuki. She denied prince raji a marriage because he only liked her hair and many other stories.

Me and Hiraku started riding back to the castle. i left the hut with a lot of my newly bought dresses in but i wont need them when i get back as many new dresses will be fitted for me. The dresses at the castle where mine when i was 12 and now i'm 16 i highly doubt they fit. I will probably give them to a girls orphanage..

I rode into the town of clarines. Its still felt the same. To avoid the crowds me and Hiraku took the longer country roads to the castle.

"Princess (Y/N)" Hiraku asked.

"yes Hiraku?" i nodded.

"when we get back do you think your ready for the marriage proposals, the work, the tight dresses, books, bordom?" Hiraku asked

I sighed."indeed i am." I said as i reached the castle gates.