Born Again, Who Dis?

"Aye Suge, chill out bro. calm down man!" laughed Slim.

"Naw i'm saying blood, niggas was trying to fight bro when he was alone. I'm just saying do any of y'all niggas wanna fight me?!" I yelled, drunk but attentive to my surroundings.

"Don't nobody wanna fight Suge, they scared bro." said a close friend who's considered my brother. "Come back in the club b".

Back in the party, i'm still looking for drama and my body language is letting it be known so much that my friend comes and whispers to me, "chill bro, ain't no opps in here. we having a good time. hit this bombay".

10 months before that...

"Wasspoppin Scud, you trynna take me to make this jug?" I say to my best friend who's really like a brother. "I'll buss yo head, i got some real gas bro."

"Gimme 15 minutes Scud, i'm on my way." says my friend.

My senior year in high school was the most chaotic phase of my life. I wasn't Kj, I was Shotty Da Veli and i was living my life until someone killed me. I'd accepted the fact that i was going to die in the streets so i lived life happy and carefree until that day came. My dad was a real street guy and any guy my mom dated and had around us was as well so by nature, that's what i wanted to be. That's what was the lifestyle that was normalized to me.

"wassup bro, where you at? I'm trying to re up. Can i slide and grab a zip? Yeah? Bet."

"Hello? Aw yeah, yeah I got gas. You only need 2 grams? I'm on my way."

"Wassup!! You was talking tough on twitter bruh, wassup? what you wanna do?"

I was so wild, so crazy, so possessed. I didn't fear demons cause i knew i was the demons. I was all about selling weed, smoking weed & living life while letting my name be known. I was trapping out of the school with medicine bottles of loud in my socks under my jeans & feeling like a real king.

Now don't get me wrong, by no means did i ever call myself a thug or gangsta. I just was real and solid, i didn't go for any disrespect. If you wanted to fight then let's fight, if you wanted to squash it then let's squash it but understand that i'm always watching you. Now KJ, he's a young man who is so wise it doesn't make sense. He's been resurfaced for about a year and some months, best decision ever. KJ truly loves God and he's doing so much better in life. Suge was born years ago but recently got the name change from Shotty to Suge. My friends called me Suge cause i look like a battle rapper with the name and i acted like the infamous Suge Knight.

"Yo nephew man...you all packed up for camp?"

"Yeah Uncle Zo, I'm packed up man. I'm excited" i said as i muted the phone to exhale the smoke & passed the blunt to my brother.

Once i was off the phone, i made up my mind that i wasn't going to be a christian camp counselor to some kids i didn't know. Why would i go away for 3 days and miss out on some fast money for kids who i don't even know? (Let me just pause the story and say that I truly thank God for convicting me and making me go anyways.)

Long story short...

I cried, i cried and i cried some more at the camp. I talked to God until he had no choice but to respond, i begged him to love me again...& i repented with a sincere heart.

July 22nd, 2017 made one year since i'd given my life to Christ, December of 2016 I was baptized and I'm still happy to be living for him!

I have real relationships with some of the kids i get to see yearly at camp. I love them all & i love being a role model to them. In my cabin was 10 young men ages 10-16 and by the end of camp all of them had given their lives to Christ! We had real talks about everything: girls, gangs, weed, depression, suicidal thoughts, music, porn, etc...i say all that to say, if you want kids to have a real relationship with Christ then you have to weed the real problem from their lives.

My campers taught me so much about myself, they made me love myself and they made me realize that no matter what mistakes i made before camp..God forgave me and gave me a clean slate. I quit smoking & selling weed cold turkey, i stopped talking to all the females who were no good and i prayed and pursued the one who God made just for me to treat like a princess & most of all I learned how to have a relationship with my creator. With everything being said, no matter who you are or what you're stronghold, bondage or addiction is...God can and God will forgive you and make you clean. No sin is too much for him to forgive you, so repent and let his love comfort you through the rest of your life. 🙏🏿