I was complicated when I was younger, and now I'm just corrupted. Not everyone is blessed with the gift of forgiveness or the gift of gratitude. But as for me? I was given the gift of understanding. I was able to help when needed, but then again, I was cursed. I was cursed with poor decision making, cursed with a sickness, cursed with an easiness to love that was surreal.
My intake of the world was like looking at water. Everybody has it, its just up to you on what you decide to do with it.
You can drink the water or you can dispose of it.
Me? I never took the water.
Honestly I took the juice.
Well, I took in the bad and I released the good.
For example, years ago I met this boy. His name was Nathan. He loved me with all his heart, but it was easy to tell that he wasn't fully devoted to me. I took him in and loved him. I showed him what real love felt like, but he still couldn't shake that feeling. Then something bad happened, and he was able to see my true devotion for him.
Months later, he was happy with somebody else, but clinging on to me, or our past, you might say.
Then there was Ace, Rosemary, Darius, and Austin.
They all didn't learn the story as much as Nathan did, but they did learn how happy they could've been.
I mess with their heads. I make them believe it can't get any better. I let them think to the point they forget what happened in their past l, because I became the present.
Currently I'm working on a victim, but he's quite stubborn. He's not opening up as much as I want to.
My observations on him aren't exact.
He's sweet and opening, but he doesn't open to everyone.
Ive been observing him for eight months now, and still can't crack the code. He's harder than my usual cases. By now, he should've been head over heels for me, he should've been telling be he loves me, by now, I should've had him wrapped around my finger begging me for more. By now, he should be begging for my sex.
But...
He isn't.... is there something wrong with me? Is there something i need to fix!!!
What is happening!
Actually no. Im perfect. There's nothing wrong with me.
Im just an understanding individual.
I wonder though....I wonder if he's smarter than the others.
Does he know?
He can't possibly know. Boys are too dumb, and I shall never love a victim.
Not even if it kills me.
I don't have one name....every new boy gets a new name.
One day i can be a Jazmin and the next day i can be a Gladys. Its just how the cookie crumbles. So, consider me, Unknown.
