H.O.P.E

Chapter 1.

Finding hope for some people is hard. For me finding my hope was hard. I've found hope. In the last few months, my parents have separated, I lost my best friend to suicide, I found out if m hip doesn't get better running could be out of the picture, I meet some that has turned my life around and made it better.

I used to cut myself. But yesterday I was two months clean of cutting myself. I still get anxiety and panic attacks but I'm working on those. I gave up on there being any happiness or hope in my life about two months ago. When I stopped looking for hope I found it. Just by talking to someone I found my hope. I realized that you only get one chance at this life there is no going back.

Two years ago I tried to kill myself. Failing to do that made me realize that I get one chance at this life and that if I would have succeeded in killing myself I wouldn't be able to go back on it I wouldn't be here today writing this.

Hope is something special it's not easy to find but it's easy to lose. Finding out that I had to be out for three weeks of running made me lose all hope of reaching my goal this season. 10-2-17 I ran for the first time in three weeks. With two more races, I plan on Getting into the 13s and out of the 15s.

Finding out my parents where separating hit me hard. But there's a hell of a lot of hope that they'll work it out.

Through all of these things I've talked to people but one person has made a difference one person had become my hope. One person can make a difference in your life. And one person can change a bad day into a day you'll never forget. One person changed my life. One person made me stop cutting myself one person made an impact on my life.

Find your hope.