H.O.P.E

chapter 8.

Everyone says that their parents love them.

Everyone say they having a caring mother that loves them with all their heart.

Do you know what i get to say about my mom?

When someone asks about my mom

i get to tell them that she has flat out told me that she hates me that she doesn't love me.

That my happiness doesn't matter. My mother throws me into walls and doors, she hits me and screams at me all the time.

she acts like she cares when others are around but as soon as they leave i have done something that make her add another scar to my body or have me add another one to myself. if its not a scar its a bruise.

That my mother calls the cops on me for no reason. that she left my dad because she was having an affair for eight years .

nobody realized that about me. that my life was this messed up because i put a smile on my face and acted like i was okay and i'm not okay i'm breaking down inside i can't keep doing this. i can't keep acting happy, i cant keep acting like i'm okay because i'm sure as hell not because writing this is making me cry more.

She looked me dead in the eyes and told me that she doesn't care about me.

so to everyone who knows and understands what i'm going through all i can say at this point is surround yourself with the people that love and care about you because in the long run those are the people that will be with you for a life time. dont lose those people and don't lose sight of yourself because your amazing people and God has a plan for us all.