It's Gone Further

Confusion.

 After we are done, I get up cautiously.

"So, are you still mad at me?" I whisper, praying he won't yell again.

"No, I wasn't mad, just worried." he explains sorrowfully.

"Oh, well I'm a big girl, I can take care of myself." I say, realizing I said that for the second time today.

"I know you can, its just that, I don't know. Whatever." he looks around the room awkwardly, avoiding my gaze.

"I'm taking a shower." I say huffily. I rush out of his room, before he can say anything else. I lock the door to the bathroom. "I know I shouldn't sleep with my brother but, ugh." I say to myself, trying to make sense of everything. Austin and I have been close since forever. We were inseparable. Austin is the one that takes care of me when my parents are spending their lives, the way people do when they don't have children. He's my protector but he's also my lover and I like it that way.

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When I had my thirteenth birthday party at my house, I invited everybody from school over to celebrate, including my crush Josh Dillon. He had super blonde hair and ice blue eyes that made me melt everytime he looked at me. We all went to the basement to play Seven Minutes in Heaven. Since I was the birthday girl, I spun the bottle first. Josh sat diagnoloy from me. I said a silent prayer to myself, willing the bottle to land on him. It did. I stood up slowly, my insides tingling with happiness. Someone led us to the closet, I went in first. After a few seconds Josh followed, he slammed the door quickly.

"Um, I'm NOT going to kiss you. Okay," he said,"I don't like you like that."

"Oh... okay." I said, as if it didn't bother me.

It seemed like my world fell. I tried to hold in my tears, as we waited for the seven minutes to end. When the buzzer finally rang after what seemed like eternity, I opened the door and smiled to everyone, hiding the fact that Josh and I didn't do anything. Stacy ran up to me excitedly and pulled me back into the hellhole of a closet.

"Oh, my gosh! What happened in there?" she asked, questioningly.

"Nothing." I said flatly.

"What do you mean, 'nothing'?" she replied

"He didn't want to kiss me alright. Gosh." I retorted angrily, feeling sorry for myself.

"O-"

"Don't say anything about it. It's a whatever" I said, cutting her off.

I opened the closet again and sat on the carpet, waiting for the next person to spin, acting as if nothing was wrong.

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 After the party, Austin came up to me.

"What's wrong?" he asked worriedly, sensing I wasn't happy.

"Oh, it's nothing." I said, hoping he wouldn't ask me anything else.

"Seriously. I can tell when something's up so just tell me." he answered

"Fine," I replied, rolling my eyes,"I'll tell you in my room."

We walked up the stairs arm in arm. I opened my door and sat on my fuzzy green chair in the corner of my room. Austin closed the door easily. I gestured to Austin to sit on my bed. He did.

"Sooo, what's up?" he asked quietly putting his feet up onto my neatly cleaned blanket, wrinkling it. I winced, hating that my blanket was now dirty.

"Remember when Josh and I went into the closet?" I waited for his reply. He looked kind of angry and distant while he thought.

"Yeah. Why?" he said, his eyes flashed something quickly, seemingly like jealously.

"He wouldn't kiss me because he said he didn't like me like that and you know he's my crush..." I  broke off mid sentence and began crying a little, feeling heartbroken.

Austin got up and walked toward me. He put his arm around me and whispered,"It's okay. He's a douche anyway, just like his brother." I looked up at him, and saw he was genuinely caring about me, which made me cry even more. Austin's hug got tighter and comforted me. I wiped my tears, as he let go of me. I got up and laid on my bed, facing the ceiling. I closed my eyes and felt a something on me.

"What are you doing?" I whispered to Austin.

"Shh." he said before he kissed me. My whole body filled with warmth. I lost control and started kissing back. Austin's tongue crept into my mouth and I felt his lips turn into a smile.

When his lips parted from mine, I was shocked. Austin looked at me, then left my room like nothing happened. I started to reach for my phone so I could call Stacy. I stopped, my hand falling to the bed with a thump. I decided not to call her because I knew she would be creeped out if I told her what happened between me and Austin. This is one secret I've kept from Stacy. Even though I felt bad, I fell asleep feeling a little bit better.

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The next day at breakfast, my parents weren't home. I sat at the kitchen table, pouring my Cheerios into my favorite, purple bowl. Austin shuffled groggily to the table and sat down. A few minutes passed in total silence. It was really awkward, so I decided to break the ice.

"So, how was your night?" I questioned, brushing my bangs out of my face.

"Uh, good I guess. How was yours?" he asked

"Great." I smiled

"Well, you feel better then, don't you," he assumed,"Your welcome." He winked at me.

"Yeah, about that kiss last night, uh wh-"

"I knew you liked it. I did too and if you'd like I could do it again." He said sounding cocky.

"Whatever. Loser. We shouldn't have done it, we are brother and sister remember. If we had, you know, and I got preggers, our baby would come out with mental defects or something like that. I learned about that in science a few weeks ago." I spoke nervously, hoping he wouldn't get mad.

"We'll be careful," he slid his finger up my arm," Next time." He got up from his seat and left me wondering when next time would be...

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Can anyone comment me ideas on who should be cast as Austin? Have no idea right now..... Please and thank you. S/o to whoever comments :)