Noticeable

Chapter 2

It's Monday. Which means High School. 6:15 am, dressed eat, try to look decent, brushed my teeth , then out the door by 7:00am.

I wasn't your typical insecure teenage girl. I would wear makeup fix my hair and wear "the clothes" but I was shy, had glasses, and had a gap between my top front teeth. Even though I have braces now it didn't do any justice.

Every morning my dad would come pick me up from my grandmother's house to take me to school.

Yes, I live with my grandmother. I'll try to explain as to why I am here, I'll do my best to make it understandable... I myself don't even understand it.

My dad and mom split when my brother, Bryan and I were about 3-4 years old. A few months go by and our mother never showed up to take us on "her weekend." So father had found a new girlfriend, Marissa, so us kids can have a mother figure in our life.

She had a daughter who was around the same age as us. My dad had custody of Bryan and I, so therefore we had to do whatever his next move was. Him and Marissa kicked it off pretty well so we moved into a house down in Westle PA.

We were there for about 6 months, until we found out the house was infested with termites. So then they bought a trailer a few miles away. We still went to the same school, so it didn't affect us kids that much.

They ended up having a baby boy, his name is Aaron.

When he hit the age of 1, I was in charge of him because I was the oldest. I had to watch him, carry him, play with him, etc. It was sickening I was 9 years old. He started calling me mom because I was always with him and nurtured him.

We lived in the trailer for about 3 years, until Marissa and my dad got into a fight. She took her daughter and Aaron with her and went to her moms house, which was in Newton, (about an hour away). So my dad took Bryan and I, to our grandmothers to stay.

We finish the school year, I believe I was in 4th grade. Then we moved again. Apparently, my dad and Marissa had plans on getting back together so we moved down to Marissa's mom's house.

We stayed there for the summer.

Then my dad and Marissa bought a house in Kattin. It was nice. We never had a full house to call our own before. It also came with a smaller house beside it. It has 1 bedroom, a kitchen, living room, basement and bathroom. We lived there for about 10 years.

May I add the fact that during those 10 years, us kids were abused. Mentally, physically, but mostly emotionally. I blame Marissa. She controlled everything.. even my dad. He never got a say in anything or did anything he wanted. It was always about Marissa.

Then my dad got sick, he was diagnosed with symptoms of mutiple sclerocis...

Marissa didn't like that because that meant she would have to work (which she never did.) So she started cheating on my father with her "highschool crush" and then left for good with Lindsey and Aaron to go live with this new man named Michael.

My dad did everything he could to keep the house, but with him not being able to work and he couldn't get disability just yet, he couldn't afford the bills for the house.

And what really sucks is that my grandmother was helping pay for the house as well and now she can't even afford her own house.

So my dad decided that him, Bryan and I should live in the other little house with the 7 dogs Marissa ever so desperately wanted. We stayed in that little house just until we finished the school year.

It was horrible.

After the school year ended we moved up to my great aunts house. A lot has happened in the past year and I was confused.

I was also jealous to see the "lavish" life Lindsey seemed to be living with her mother. So I decided to move down with them, it was 6 weeks into my 10th grade year, so it wasn't that big of a deal.

At first everything was great! but as time went by, I became so depressed.

Marissa and Michael had a kid, her name was Bella. I basically raised her too.

Marissa was never home, and was on drugs. Her husband was a truck driver and was never home either. Lindsey also was NEVER home, she was always at her boyfriends house.

I was annoyed and cried myself to sleep every night. In fact, I didn't even have a bed. The only comfort I had was seeing Aaron and being there for him.

As I was living there, I met John. Him and I started "dating"... well basically we were forced to.

He was Michael's friends son and he was too old for Lindsey so therefore he had no other option but me...

We dated for 3 months, but we rarely saw each other, we would see each other once a month.. so I don't even really want to call that a relationship. He cheats on all of his girlfriends, so I wouldn't doubt it if he cheated on me.

Oh wait, He did. With my step sister, Lindsey.

As time went by, I had to move, I just had to get out of that environment.

So I did. I moved back in with my dad at my great aunts house. But I couldn't take it there anymore either. My great aunt, dad, cousin, and my brother, all live there. It was too much. WAY too many people, not enough room. So I decided to move down the road in with my grandmother.

And am still currently here to this day...