If Only They Knew

Chapter 10

Once they were away from the door Emma stopped and buried her face in Killian's chest. She could not stop the tears from falling.

"Shh, I've got you, Love. No one will touch you." He rubbed her back gently as they stood there.

"Killian.. I.. Let's just go to the hotel.. I just want to be in your arms." She looked up at him.

He wiped the tears from her cheeks with his fingers, and tightened the jacket around her shoulders. "I can do that. And if you want to not talk about this, we can pretend it never happened."

Emma nodded and let him take her back to their hotel room. She was silent the entire walk, and then she changed out of her dress and into one of Killian's shirts before crawling into the bed and curling up. Killian was worried about her, she had not been this detached since she told him about what happened with Neal.

He put on his pajamas and got into bed with her. "Swan.." He said softly, reaching out to  rub her back.

She turned over and crawled into his arms. "I hate that he ruined this weekend. We were having a good time." She said softly.

Killian shook his head. "He didn't ruin it. I still get to spend time with my beautiful girlfriend. That's all that matters. Do you want to talk about why it upset you so much?" He asked softly.

She held onto his shirt. "I.. I know he wasn't lying about feeling bad, but.. He hurt me so much. We could've had a child and he never even knew. I thought about telling him." She said softly.

Killian kissed her head. "You don't owe him anything, and it's okay that you're still hurt. He took advantage of you." He rubbed her back. "But I'm not going anywhere, Emma Swan. It'll take a lot to get rid of me."

She hugged his neck tightly. "You're so much better than him, Killian. I don't deserve you. I deserve to be with guys like him."

"Swan, that is not true. You're the strongest, and most head strong woman I've ever met. You're powerful, and confident. You're absolutely stunning. You've got the biggest heart, and I know that one day, if it's what you decide you want, you'll be an amazing mother." He said softly.

Killian loved Emma more than the world, and he had wanted to do more than just shove Neal. Killian was fiercely protective of Emma and always had been. He never imagined he would ever have to see Neal, but he held himself back for her sake.

Emma blinked up at him. "I'm not that great, Killian. I'm just a girl with walls, and an awful childhood." She said softly.

"Swan, I love you. You let me behind those walls and it was the single greatest thing that ever happened to me." He kissed her forehead. "You're the only one I want to be with."

She nodded. "I love you too. Thank you for not punching him. I know you were holding back for my sake." She said softly.

"Aye, Swan. I didn't think he deserved my time of day. You were all that was on my mind." Killian cuddled her close.

She closed her eyes and snuggled against him for a few minutes. "Were you serious about me being a good mom?" She asked softly.

Killian had rested his cheek against her head. "Aye, Love. Of course you will be. But I know you're unsure about having children." He said softly.

Emma kissed his chest. "You'd be the best father, Killian. Maybe you should find a woman who is sure of what she wants, who will give you a family." She said softly.

"Emma, Love.. I don't need children to be happy. I just want to be with you, and if some day we have a family, whether it be children of our own, or maybe we adopt, then I'll be happy. But all I need is you." He kissed her head and rubbed her back gently.