His eyes never left mine. Our last moments were heart wrenching and untill he took his last breath, his warm brown eyes stared lovingly into my blue ones.
My hand lay on his chest, each time his heart would would beat mine would stop. I dreaded the moment when his heart would stop to the extent that it had given up. Unable to hold his gaze, I looked away. My eyes felt wet and my vision blured.
No. I will not cry.
" Evan, " he said horasely.
" I love you and I want you to promise me that you will move on. Please Evan promise me. "
I shook my head.
How could he ask me to move on?
Did he not realize how much I loved him?
" Evan, Please."
" I can't. How could you ask me to move on? Do you not realize without you..."
" Evan please. I want you to be happy, " he pleaded.
I could hear how much it hurt him to speak. How much energy he wasted on me. It broke my heart to see him in pain, to know that in a few days, hours, minutes, seconds he would leave me, all alone and I would loose my will to fight, to smile, to be happy, to breathe, to live.
Without him i was broken.
" I promise, " i choked out.
He smiled, " Good. "
Just like that he was gone.
My William, my will was gone and I would never see him again.
He would never hold me, or tell me he loved me again.
He was gone. just gone.
