The trouble with falling in love

Chapter 6

... He likes Jenabelle," She finished as she gave me a hug as if to say dun worry I am here for you.

Not wanting to face reality and hoping for a mistake made by her ,I asked,

"How do you know?"

"Oh, well his Best Friend Blake told me and he confessed in church.." She replied apologetically.

Oh mi God! I thought depressedly to myself as I pondered over it for the next few days. I have spent countless nights and days pondering about it and then I came up with a reassurance to myself thinking that maybe he lied to his Sister and all. But his actions just now just proved me wrong and I am not gonna lie , it hurt a damn lot . But how could it be I mean he has been giving me mixed signals all this while like I dunno if this is stupid for me to take note of this kind of  things , but every time we pass notes, he would always shoot it to me instead of Jenabelle and he would also answer private notes although it might ruin his reputation. And did inferring from these actions, I thought he liked me. But I Guess I was wrong. He was just like all other boys, always going for the most desired ones or the most popular without even knowing them well.How stereotypical.

Wiping tears from my eyes, I stood up and brushed my pants for imaginary dirt as I washed my face and checked my appearance and left the restroom to the classroom.

The rest of the day passed by in a blur with me feeling like an utter snob and it seemed like eternity when I finally reached home.

Ding dong! The doorbell rang throughout the house as I still laid on my bad too upset and lazy to even get up. Then the door slammed open as a voice rang out,

" Did u get it on with Adrian? Well dun worry if you did cos, I got after morning pills!"

Hearing that, I just bursted into another round of tears. Well I Guess I will never have that problem...

Seeing my outburst, Emma looked shocked as she slowly came over and hugged me tightly.

"He's too good for you, you know?" Emma comforted as she gave me a tissue.

"No way, it's just I am way too fat and I am too far from pretty to be in his league unlike Jenabelle"I muttered sadly inbetween sobs.

And so that night I cried myself to sleep thinking about Adrian and Jenabelle.
And Guess what the best thing is Jenabelle was not even aware of me having a crush on Adrian since forever..

However, the sadest thing is after all this I still don't blame him for doing anything and I still like,no wait love him as much

Well as the saying goes, " I was always the good Friend and never the Girlfriend,and it hurts to know that he will never look at me the same way I look at him.."