Harry,
Letter number two, yay! Haha. I don't know…I just…I guess I want you to know how I feel about you and writing in this book seems to be a lot easier – for whatever reason – than trying to say it in person.
Hope you don't mind me doing this…I don't see why you would, but just in case. Hmm…so…I think I know what I'll talk about today.
Remember when you told me you had a surprise for me? You said to wear something fancy and I tried to tell you there was no need to take me anywhere expensive – because there really isn't – and you just brushed it off like it was no big deal.
You left because you said you had to get something and I changed whilst you were gone. When you came back you told me I looked beautiful, and that always makes me smile (maybe even blush sometimes).
We got to a restaurant and we were seated straight away, but after I was sitting down in my spot you had gone to talk to a waiter and I just looked around. The place was so nice…I don't even want to begin to think about how much it costs to eat there.
We got champagne for a drink and as soon as I went to pick up my glass, something caught my eye. I looked at it more closely and asked you what it was.
Once you had dried it off, you got up and got down on one knee. It was all so surreal…and that little speech you said…I will never forget it; it was so sweet.
Then you asked me to marry you, and – just like you said – I knew we hadn't been together for very long, but I also knew that I would never feel the way I feel about you with anyone else. I knew, in my heart, that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you and that I would do anything to make it possible.
If you were surprised when I said yes…then, Harry, I am glad I decided to make this collection of letters.
You will know how much I care for you, how much I love you, and how much I need you. Desperately. I desperately need you, and I can only hope that you need me too.
Even if you don't need me as much as I need you, I at least hope and pray that you can/will need me in some way at some point in time.
But back to the restaurant…
I told you not to waste your money on me because I don't need or want expensive things. Be it dinner or a gift, whatever it is, it could be food from McDonalds or something from the dollar store.
Honestly, I could care less if you never bought me a thing. All I want is for you to love me and hold me in your arms.
Just your arms around me makes it seem like everything is going to be okay because I have someone as amazing as you to stay by my side through it all.
You don't even realise how much better my life has been since you came into it. I never got sleep before we laid side-by-side in my bed, your arms around me, my body fitting perfectly against yours.
That was the first night I slept through for years. Yes, I really do mean years.
To me…
To me, you are my protection…
To me…you are my guardian angel and I never want to lose you.
~*~ April 29, 2014 ~*~
