What's going to happen next

Chapter 2: Well here goes everything

I woke up at 3:00 am gasping for air. I had a nightmare about me telling Derek, so the love of my life about my "issues". He didn't react well he said he was leaving me and never coming back. Thank god it was just a dream. I couldn't go back to sleep, so I changed into shorts and a tank top and I worked out. I ran all through my apartment, and up the stairs before I went to my room and started to do yoga to try to calm me down. It wasn't until 8:00 am that I had to realize I was going to meet Derek at our favorite coffee shop in an hour. I quickly got a shower and now all I had to do was put on a new outfit, easy right? Well the average person would think it's easy but, it's not. I look in the mirror in my closet judging my body and hating everything about it. I quickly realized what I was doing and started to ignore myself and grabbed a sweater, boots, and a pair of jeans. I got dressed, brushed my teeth, and grabbed my car keys. I got into my car and started to drive to the coffee shop. When I arrived Derek was already there waiting for me. As I step out of my car he said " Hey love, I missed you. " I giggle and reply "I missed you too." He grabs my hand and we walk into the coffee shop. Derek knows my order so he went up to order while I went and found a table for us to sit at, while looking for a table I debate whether I should tell Derek or not. I decided to wait for tonight and invite him over to my apartment to tell him. " Okay so here's an iced chocolate caramel macchiato for you, and just an iced toffee latte for me." I smile and he smiles back. " Well how was visiting your mother back in Tennessee?" I asked. "Good, her surgery went well and she recovered quickly." "I'm really happy to hear that." I say holding his hand. "What all happened while I was gone?" Derek asked staring at my ice blue eyes. "You know the usual." I responded taking a gulp of my coffee. "Okay, I'm assuming we're still on for date night tonight." Derek said. "Of course we are babe!" I responded, maybe a little too excitedly. We both chuckled. We ended up talking for two hours before Derek's work called and reminded him he was running late, so then Derek had to leave. After Derek left I cleaned up our table and left the coffee shop too. A couple hours later I did my makeup and hair, while cleaning up my apartment. For date night Derek is going to come here and I'm going to make us a fancy dinner and after dinner I'm going to tell him about well everything. Derek arrives exactly on time, dressed in his usual uniform for work. " Aww baby you didn't have to cook anything. " Derek says as he walked up to me hugging me from my waist. " Of course I did babe, it's date night." I said as I turned around to hug him back. " You look absolutely beautiful " he said. " As do you. " I said laughing. He laughed too. After we ate our meal, I walked Derek over to the couch and told him I had something to tell him. " Are you okay?" he asked. " Derek, yesterday morning I went to the doctor and they diagnosed me with bad anxiety and they um... well they diagnosed me with anorexia, and they said if I don't get treatment that I could die." I said while choking back tears. " Babe, why didn't you tell me sooner?" He asked with a tear running down his face. " I thought you would leave me." I responded with well by now tears running down my face. Derek embraced me with a tight hug while he said " I'm not going anywhere."