Lighting On My Skin

What Will We Do When We're Sober?

You could say over the next few days I was 'distracted' Anyway, I got my boys home from Gavin and instead of ignoring him I smiled at him when he came to the door and he gave me a weird look and left. What I find so crazy is that you can share such a wonderful life together and then after something happens you never exchange words again. I feel weird never talking to someone who I used to tell everything. But I had a new him in my life and this one was a million times better. All I wanted is for Blake to come to L.A. I was so distracted thinking about him all the time. All I wanted was to taste his lips. All I wanted was to lie next to him again. I however had other things to do than fantasize about Blake. Writing an album was one of them. That was the only time I was allowed to fantasize about him. I could write down all the things I wanted to do with him and all the times I wanted to be with him. It was perfect but being a mom is a pretty big responsibility- especially to three young boys. I took them to school every day and took care of their needs and I really had no time to sit down. One night when they were not home Gavin texted me and said:
Can I take the boys this weekend?
I replied:
Sure be here at 10:00am on Saturday
He wrote:
Ok.
Yes we are that cold to each other but I don't trust him at all and I'm sure if anyone felt what he did to me they wouldn't exactly want to be best friends. Anyway I realized I could invite Blake for the weekend and I was so happy!
I texted him:
What are you doing this weekend?
He wrote back
I think I'm coming to see you?
I texted:
Right! The boys are leaving at 10:00am so come anytime after because the morning will be hectic but they do want to see you so we will have to organize that soon!
He replied
K, princess see you then!
I flirted back emojis- duh?
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