i do it for the thrill of the rush.

oh but noelle, i will.

noelle's pov ;

my first day of school wasn't half bad! i met some great people, the only thing that weirded me out was the whole 'motionless group' situation.

my other classes weren't bad, we only had 5 in total and i always had one of my friends from my first period. but.. i also had at least one motionless member in all my classes.

i still couldn't shake the feeling of how i felt when i looked at ryan, i think his name was. it's like my gaze was stuck in place and i couldn't move until all of a sudden i could move and he and his friend acted like nothing happened.

i start to walk out of the school to go home, when all of a sudden i hear loud footsteps coming from down the hall and a kid screaming.

i see not one but all motionless boys running with either guns or bats after a boy in my math class named jack, today he made a snarky comment to one of the taller members who had 3 lip rings and a lot of tattoos, his name was chris i believe.

"help me, please! i'm so sorry!!" jack yelled. i realized they were getting closer and i ran behind a trash can and hid and watched the whole scene unfold in front of me.

"maybe you shouldn't have opened your fucking mouth to chris!" ryan yelled as he hit him with his bat.. hard. i held in a breath as i was scared out of my mind.

"you know what we do, to guys like you hm?" the one with shoulder length brown hair said. "no i don't v-vinny" jack said scared. hmm so his name was vinny.

"we fuck them up until they don't got a fucking pulse!" ricky yelled. "what's your biggest fear.. jack?" chris said manically. jack stayed quiet.. "so little boy doesn't like to talk now hm?? well that's okay i can just sense it out of you." vinny said.

wait what? sense it out of you?

i watched ryan catch his gaze like he did with me and jack layed there looking paralyzed... like how i was earlier! vinny looked deep into his eyes and with a snap of a finger a huge clown with sharp razor pointed teeth jumped out at jack..

"so this is your worst nightmare? your fucking pathetic!" chris yelled.  the clown jumped in and out of his face spitting on him in the process scaring the living shit out of jack. by now he had tears streaming down his face as he backed up against the wall.

"alright vinny, enough! make it disappear." chris ordered. "ghost go get the kid and throw him over here, would you kindly?" ryan laughed. ghost grabbed the boy and through him in the spot and then they all went after him and beat him over and over until.. he was dead.

i felt hot teas stream down my face as i watched the lifeless body of jack lay in a pool of his own blood. later then, ghost did something with his hands and the floor opened up underneath jack and swallowed him whole.

by now i was sobbing uncontrollably trying to keep quiet. after what was done, something flicked off in their eyes and realization had hit them.. they had killed yet another innocent life.

they all backed up against the lockers and started to cry? it's as if after thing was done their humanity turned itself on and guilt and emotions had flooded through them.

"i can't live like this!" ryan yelled. "it's all too much, i don't know how to control myself, WHO MADE US LIKE THIS?!" vinny yelled at absolute nothing. chris, ghost, and ricky all looked as if they had met the devil themselves, they were pale and slowly had tears streaming down their faces..

what the fuck is going on right now? they actually have feelings? they just said something is controlling their emotions?

after they had all got up and left i got from where i was sitting and walked out of the school still frightened by what i saw still crying.
i saw ryan outside tears slowing going down his face. as soon as he saw me looking he wiped them away and started walking towards me.

fuck i thought. "hey your noelle right? the new girl?" ryan asked me. "y-yes." i looked at him frightened. "your scared of me aren't you?" he said as his face fell. i quickly nodded unsure of what to do.

"i figured you would, i mean who wouldn't? i'm some mass murderer right? well news flash, i didn't choose to be fucking like this." he said quietly tears forming in his eyes.

"you see those boys, the other 'motionless' boys? they are the only family i have fucking left.. they didn't choose to be like me either it all
just happened." he said just above a whisper again.

"your not a monster to me.." wait what was i saying? "ha ha yeah good one." ryan said. "your not, your just someone whose broken. someone who didn't get to choose in what they had become" i told him truthfully.

something hit hard in his emotions, he looked at me slowly. "you don't know what i go through.. i've been searching for an exit but i am lost inside my head.. where i spent every waking moment wishing i was dead!!" he started yelling.

i flinched back and looked up at him feeling my cheek start to sting. he just hit me. i felt anger build up inside of me. " you know what?! no i don't know what you go through but all i know is, is that i'm fucking stupid for DOING THE ONE THING I SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE!" i yelled. "the mistake i made was talking to one of the motionless boys right?!" i yelled crying.

"god why did i feel sorry for you! you can't love anyone you can't feel emotions, hell someone else is controlling what's going on in your fucked up head!" i screamed. "you don't know what your doing little girl" he said slowly.

"oh but i do.. your gonna what kill me now? well news flash FUCK YOU!" i yelled not realizing what i'm saying.

"oh but noelle, i will" he smiled maniacally. then he disappeared in mid air.

i ran home crying, slammed my door yelled a quick "hello" to my dad and locked myself in my room.
him and the motionless boys are definitely coming after me.

what the fuck did i just do?