I'm sorry I entered your life the way I did.
And caused the mayhem that keeps me up tonight.
Im sorry I can not control my anxiety to which I thought you understood the pain.
The thoughts I can not maintain.
Im sorry I am so overwelmed so beat up inside my own mind.
I just want to sit and unwind
To relax.
But not alone.
Cause the dark waits for me to let my guard down.
It waits to strike once I lay my head down.
Once I close my eyes it's fair play
while the dark causes this dismay
And it will alway come out on top.
And it never, never stops
Screaching whispered song's to help me fall into my nightmares.
Where your hers and im lost bleeding from my wrists
wondering why I still exist.
Wondering what im doing.
What i did
And what I had done.
Just like at school I was was a whore because you threw me on the floor.
You forced your self onto me.
And all I could do was pleade.
All I could do was scream.
"Stop no. "
But all you heard was go.
You told all your buddies I put out.
So I was a whore.
I was a whore because you forced me on my knees
"No stop it please!"
Fast forward three years in time.
Just looking to rewind.
So you can change
With a new start.
So you can find why you are pained.
Why you are painted to be destined for hate.
Why can't you just fucking change.
Fast forward three years in time.
Just looking to unwind.
At your best friends house.
Drinking till the voices stop.
But they never stop.
And my monster sounds just like you did.
Telling me I wasnt good enough
As I was forced to my knees.
While my best friends passed out on the floor.
My monsters sound just like you did
Telling me i'm worthless
As I sit on the bathroom floor.
At my bestfrinds house in tears.
With a knife to my throat.
And my monsters sounds just like you did when you told me to end it.
I can not will my self to move I can not will my chest to breathe the breath I need to see whats wrong with me.
And now my wrists are bleeding and I have a sickning feeling.
I have a sinking feeling.
