Why Me? || Jaegan

😰Scars😰

A/N im really not in the mood to write happy things rn... Im so sorry guys but im gonna be updating..

Justins POV

I stay sitting on the bathroom floor.. Raegan left to go somewhere with his mom so... I decided that i could just.. Take out my pain.. I spun the razor in between my finger tips then pressed it to my arm... I-im so sorry Rae.. I thought and made about 15 small cuts on my arm. I hide the blade and bandage my arm.. "Please let him not see this.." I say to myself and walk into Raegans room.

30 minutes later.

"Justin im back!" Rae says happily from downstairs. I put on one of his oversized hoodies and sat on the bed. I sit there.. Just... Holding in my tears..  Then Raegan walks into the room and went to hug me but I pulled away. He looked at me kind of worried. He slowly but gently grabs my arms, of course, i flinch. I look at him and scoot backward. "R-Rae please.." I say almost breaking out into tears. He pulls up my sleeves to see the slightly blood stained bandages. "Baby.." He said quietly and hugged me slowly. "Im so sorry i couldnt be here for you.." He says.. I can tell by hid voice Hes on the verge of tears. I slowly start to have a panic attack. Way to go Jay you made him sad again what cant you do wrong, I thought. He hugs me and kisses my arms, he makes me lay down and scans over my skin and kisses every scar he finds.. I smile a little but it quickly fades... He now knows that i hate my body.. He now knows that...--- nevermind..

(9PM)

"Raegan.." I slowly say and look up at him with my head still on his chest. "Yeah baby?" I breathe slowly.. "I.. I cant believe you're actually mine.." I manage to get out and quickly cover his mouth so he doesnt say anything. "Im glad I can be yours baby.." He said smiling.. Then slowly we fall asleep..

My insta wont fuckin work😒 I got Jaegan tea🐸☕