SOMETHING ELSE

PART 2:

The alarm began to ring, I didn't remember I programmed It, I stretched my hand but I didn't find it so I had to got up from my bed and began to follow the sound that it was making, it was so wear the alarm was under my bed, I took it and turn it off , suddenly my mom called me-she never called me in the mornings and less for my name- instantly I turned to look the pills, I shook my head- well at least I know where they are, I went downstairs and she was there waiting for me to come down, when she saw me she smiled and said –I can see that the alarm trick worked- she turned around and kept cooking, it smelled really good –great, she wants make this easier with a delicious breakfast, this will be my last breakfast made by her and with her...perfect-I thought while I walked towards the kitchen and got sit down in the chair that was in front of the porterhouse, at the time I arrived there my mom looked at me and said -we have to talk- In that moment just for those simple words I felt as if the world would collapse and the lump in my throat began to emerge, I couldn't pronounce any word so I just looked at her willing to listen, and she began to talk –look Abigail, I know that I'm not the best mother that someone could have, but I'm trying to do the best that I can, but you're not letting me build this family, everybody is talking really bad about you and with reasons because you have done bad things, do you know that nobody wants you here? Yeah I know that since your dad and brothers had the accident you have changed so I do, but that doesn't mean that you can go around the world doing what you want, and getting into a lot of problems- I knew  what was next, she was really tired of me  –for that reason you and me will leave the city, a friend of mine found me a job in London the airplane leaves the city tomorrow at 6 o'clock we have to do the suitcases, and Abigail I need you begin to be a good girl like you use to do, in that city nobody knows about us so this is our opportunity to be better, are you okay with that?- I didn't know what to say, the world that had collapsed had been rebuilt, just that there was something that I can't do, my mom said that I had to change but I never asked to be change, I never wanted be the bad girl which everybody hates, it just happened, I knew  that I was never going to be the girl I was, nevertheless I said –I'm okay with that, thanks mom- she smiled and hugged me saying– I love you, I never will to let the people hurt you, now go and make the suitcases- and that's what I did, I went upstairs totally confuse for what happened, I thought that my mom was hating me but she didn't, she just wanted a change from me and that's what I'll try to do...to change.

I can't never be the girl I was that just never gonna happen, I don't want to be the girl I am... all what I can is try to be better.