Why Can't I Be Loved¿?

Caught Wagging

When you fall in love with someone you may think that it's true love that it will last forever but dose it ever really last??
I thought that I had found the love of my life I gave him more than I have ever given anyone before. We fought quite a bit and we broke up and got back to gather a few times to. Until one day...
Me and Jaxon (using a different name to protect this guy's sorry ass) decided to wag school for a few hours, so we went to my house to have some fun and to sort out an argument we had the day before, when we got to mine I forgot I had my keys so we stayed out side he pulled a sneaky move and spun me around and started to kiss me. In shock I just stood there then I started automatically kissing him back so we did a full make out session. Until I had an idea to look through my bag for my keys so I pushed away from him to look for my keys, just as I thought I would give up looking for them guess what I found... My keys. So we both grabbed our bags and I unlocked the door so we stumbled into my house and we made our selves comfortable and started to talk about yesterday's fight and why it happens. In the end we ended up in my room smoking a cigarette and drinking cordial. At 1:25 my mum called and asked if we were still at home and I said yeah why what's up she then told us that Jaxons mum had tried calling her and we needed to go back to school. So we grabbed our stuff and headed back to school. Just as we got to school lunch had ended and Jaxon and I got called up to the office so we went to class instead and I spotted Jaxons mums car. I started to freak out because she absolutely hates me. The one of the teachers spotted me and told me to wait with them until miss p came to get me and just as he said that I saw her and Jaxon walking my way she looked very worried but once she saw me she was relieved that she had found me - Evan thought the other teacher had found me first - we walked to her office and I herd Jaxons mums voice I started to freak out I never wanted to be in the same room as her never. I went to the Chaplin and she told me how worried she was and that incident leave school she hasn't know where I went so that she knows that I am OK ( I was on a safety plan and if im not in class a notification goes out to all the teachers saying I'm not in class and I need to be found asap don't tell school about your suicide tendencies it will FUCK u over when u want to wag) I told her everything that happens and she brought me into the room and stayed in there with me because she knows that I hate being in the same room as Jaxons  mum.

I sat down in silence looking at Jaxon he was crying he knew he was in alot of shit. Miss p told me what Jaxon had said, he said that he was in school the whole time and that he was in class. I sat there In silence, then I told the where we were and what we were doing. Jaxons mum started going off saying she had spent the past hour looking for us and that why fix an argument if we weren't together in my defence I said because I want to remain friends with him.... Then she said that Jaxon had told her that he wants nothing to do with me that he blocked me on everything and that he never wanted to talk to me again. I was so hurt I started to cry because at the time I still loved him to pieces then she brought up my 'dead' girlfriend I started to cry more and more then she put in her life experience with things that happens to me and that was the only reason why she let me stay with her for nearly 3 months. Once the meeting ended I was balling my eyes out because I was so hurt and so angry. All the teacher that were in there at the time we're all trying to comfort me because they all felt bad for me and they were all proud that I spoke the truth.

Skipping to 4 in the afternoon 4 days after the wagging incident

I walk into work hopping that everything will be OK and that I will have a good night. Then I look at the roster and see that Jaxon was working as well I sigh loudly then he walks around the corner. I say a quiet hi and he starts trying to talk to me. I was still very pissed off at him so I walked away into the change room. I quickly patch up my make up and fix my hair as my shift was about to start. I walk over to clock on and he is waiting for me out side the girls change rooms I walk past him and continue to do what I needed to do. I clock on and ask were I am working tonight my manager says due to your injury u are on first window for dive thru (3 days earlier I had a dance Comp and I fucked my knee) so I walk over to the window put on the headset and start to take orders. About twenty minutes into my shift I trip a bit and my manager tells me I can't work because I'm injured and it's dangerous for me to work.... I leave and go home and for two months I can't work.

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