Poems // Him

I hate you

You don't know how insecure I feel
How many meals I've skipped thinking that it'll help me lose some weight.
You don't know how many hours I've spent looking up things to get a better body.
You don't know how many countless hours I've tried putting on makeup, just to at least look decent.
I hate you for making me completely destroy what little self confidence I had in myself
Cause loving you had made me not want to look at myself in the mirror.
Because I know deep down, I'll never meet your expectations
And all I do is sit and cry, because I've never Felt so worthless