It's okay to not okay

Everybody knew that Seokjin is always taking care of his younger members, and everybody knew he is good at taking care people include him self. Seokjin hate it when he makes people worry especially worry about him that's why he do his best to not make people worry, he always be the healthier among the other because of it, besides he's in charge to taking care of his younger brother so he has to keep himself healthier than the other.

So he really hate it when he feels not well, he had been careless about his own health recently because of some things, their new album comeback make them having a super tight schedule, his dongsaengs are exhausted due to their tight schedule and as usual he is the one who taking care all of them. He really doesn't mind to take care of his dongsaengs, he good at it even, but this time is a little bit different, his dog that had been with him for years just died and it makes him really really sad, he try his best to not show to the others especially their fans who already worry over him because he cancel his position as special mc in the music show.

It's been a week since his dog, Jjanggu, died. And their schedule fill with music show and fansign here and there​. Seokjin hasn't tell his member about his dog cause they're in the middle of comeback promotion, he doesn't want to bother his dongsaengs and make them worry. But Seokjin is far from fine, he's been mourning over his dog, it causes he loss his appetite, he stay in the practice room longer than he used to, bangtan usually choose to order food in comeback week cause they know Seokjin must be tired to cook for them, but Seokjin insist cook for them instead, he's unconsciously trying to distracted himself by practicing and cooking.

He also stay all night, lock himself in the bathroom and cry silently while everyone is sleeping. He's usually share his sadness with his roommate or his member, but see how they look exhausted after finish their schedule he decide to keep it by himself. Until his body finally give up from the tight schedule, less eat and cry all night. Today they have two fansign awaiting, but Seokjin's body feel so sore, he's burning and he can't stop sneezing.

"This is bad, I can't show up at fansign like this, I don't want share virus to my fans and other member"
Seokjin thought, they are already at the fansign venue and it's impossible to just cancel it because of him, so he decide to sit at the edge of the line, so member and fans wont be around him too long, he doesn't want anyone to get sick because of him.
"Hyung u looks pale and I heard u keep sneezing, are u okay?" Jimin ask worriedly and try to reach Seokjin forehead but fortunately Seokjin feel about to sneeze again and avoid Jimin to feel his burning skin,
"Kids you guys have to fill the seat now" their manager tell them and pushing them to move, "Go get some rest hyung" Seokjin feel a cold pale hand reach his forehead, it's Yoongi
"Later Yoongichi~ can't disappoint the fans" Seokjin answer with apologetic smile.
Yoongi is about to protest but he already heard their fans screaming as the member show up one by one.

During the fansign Seokjin try so hard to keep conscious, he feels so dizzy and nausea, he think he start to hallucinating because of the high fever, Yoongi keep glancing at him but can't look obviously because Seokjin doesn't like to make a scene, he can see how Seokjin try to looks fine but even the fans can see how sick Seokjin look, he has runny nose which obviously tell everyone that he's not okay.
At the end of the fansign Yoongi silently tell Hoseok to keep close with Seokjin.

"Why? What's wrong? Is Seokjin hyung okay?"

"I don't think he's okay Hoseok, he looks like he's tryin to keep conscious, in case his body really give up I need your bigger body to support hyung's body" Yoongi explain

"Aaa i get it hyung, don't worry I'll take care of your boyfriend"

"What boyfriend, ya! You brat!"

Hoseok giggle stop when they asked to make a heart-shape formation, Hoseok can see from his peripheral vision that Seokjin sigh and wobbly, the other start to realize too how their eldest hyung looks so pale and about to collapse in any minute, they make it fast and bid goodbye to the fans, Hoseok suddenly feels hot skin grab his wrist, he see Seokjin grab his hand try to stand even he's wobbling.
Hoseok naturally pull Seokjin close and give him piggyback, Seokjin bid army last good bye before darkness take over him and he collapse on Hoseok back, fortunately he collapse at the backstage so no any fans can see he's collapse after bidding good bye.