He said it. I heard him. Denying it was just easier. Does that make me an awful person?
I mean, this is huge. No, bigger than huge. This is my life we're talking about and this decision will turn it upside down. Wait, what am I saying?
This isn't a puppy I'm talking about or that new Valencia bag over at Macy's, this is love. L O V E. The real deal. Why am I being such a spaz?
I love him. I do. I've loved him since the day in sixth grade when he made fun of my push-ups.
In return, I called him a skinny pothead and it was love from there. Love. Okay, so maybe we weren't the typical, cookie-cutter couple.
We've threatened to kill each other once or twice. I think that was the second day after we had moved in together.
The fight was about not putting the cap back on the toothpaste. You see how ridiculous we are? We're like five year old children.
How the hell are we supposed to take this giant step and god forbid, bring mini me and hims into this world? Trust me, you do not want that.
I'm saving the human race by not answering him. But am I also destroying my one chance at happiness? He makes me happy. Like really happy. Like butterflies in my stomach when he smiles, happy. It's disgusting just how happy he can make me feel. Plus he gets me in a way not even my best friend does. Whenever I'm sick, he brings me lucky charms with just the green marshmallows. When I'm sad, he'll sing to me by plucking random chords that kinda sound like a song. It usually sucks but it always brings a smile to my face. He's crazy. He's weird. He still plays with legos. But he's mine.
He's my Adam. Not yours, not hers, not the random hoe down the street. MINE. And I want it to stay that way. But marriage? ..... Who am I kidding?
It's not being stuck with Adam for the rest of my life that scares me cause let's face it, he's like a puppy. He's not going anywhere. It's what marriage can do to us. My parents didn't work out. My best friend's parents didn't work out. I pretty sure my neighbor's parents didn't work out. How are we supposed to?
Will we be the exception? We can't because I will definitely screw this up. I will screw it up BIG time. So much, that little puppy Adam won't come back and I don't think I could handle that. ....... That's it. I've made up my mind. I'm calling him. .... He answers on the first ring. He doesn't sound happy. I take a deep breath and speak. "Yes." I can practically see his smile through the phone and that in turn, makes me smile. It's then I know I made the right choice. I'm gonna be Mrs. Adam Travis and that makes me happy.
