Thank you so much for your comments and I've thought about them for a while.
I decided to tell my friend that I THINK I might be gay. I was honestly so scared when I sent it, but he is one of my closest friends and we know each other through and through. Now that I've told him it feels like a weight has been lifted but my parents don't know yet. I'll tell everyone in my time, but at least I've told somebody.
I'm so lucky to have him.Thank you again for all your comments