God Gave Me You

"AJ's LS"

           

     My Dearest Love,

It was late in December when I first saw you.. I still remembered how I felt so scared to looked at you for I always heard that people like you seemed to had a not-so-good ideas when someone being caught took  glances or staring. I was upset and almost wanted to go home right then for I had that strange feelings of being unsafe. But I didn't, cause I can't. So I've found myself kneeling down and pray even more that you will never be a heavy troubleshoots for me. Funny, but I even asked all the angels and saints to protect me from you because I heard a lot of bad things about you.. Days, had passed by I was quietly happy because  you never even headed my way.. Oh! It felt like I'm so safe and at peace. Yes, call it "assuming or what" but that's how I really felt from those days that I thought you were the evil one. I don't want to see you and if  only I could make the time run so quickly for you to fade away from my sight.. I will. But then again, I can't. I never know why I'm feeling so scared and hated your face. You're like a devilish monster to me.. I just convinced myself that maybe because of the stories I heard from people who knew you even more. As time goes by, my hatred for you keeps growing that I came to the point to almost curse you. I really hate you. I didn't know why but I truly felt it before. No one seen me but I all the time talking to the night sky with its little shining shimmering stars for I was hoping they could answers my big "why's I need to met and knew someone like you". You're so different from the people I always loved to meet and hopefully spend quality time with. You never even know how to smile or make this world a better place by just simply sharing your wittiness.. You always have your own world that no one lives but only you too. Really, knowing someone like you was absolutely a tragic.. Hard to get your point of views in life and worst to understand. I think  of you as the impossible living one.. That maybe I was just being tested by God if how far  can works to  handled my patient and kindness even if I'm in front of an evil.. Therefore I concluded, because of that thinking I felt challenged and I accepted it. So you became my struggled that I needed to overcome with.. I believe in myself so I was then feeling great and happy.. You're the problem that I need to be solve very soon.. Then, I've got that idea to try entering your unique world hoping to know the solutions.. But it seemed like you had a lot of keys at your doorknob that I needed to find the right one so I could open and see you and how you live.. I was curious, so curious.. And just like the old sayings.. Curiosity kills  something.. Yes, I  didn't see it coming.. I shouldn't forget to read the signs.. I was caught off guard when destiny defeats playful fate.. And so I unexpectedly met the " People changed, and feelings too". That in mylife, I've met an angel that once a devil... Everything falls into pieces exactly where it meant to be.. Even if its only for awhile but its for keeps, for lifetime.. Always, I was made for loving you.. To let  you come in this worlds of billions.. Full of miseries, fantasies, aches but of course a rainbows after the rain... The happiness that first created pain.. The real of being in reality.. So please come let go of all the heaviness in your wounded heart and believe that there will always be the one kind of love that will heal and makes you believe in life with love again in any versions of reality.. I heart  you for always.. For keeps, for lifetime..

  PS: This story I'll be written.. I meant it only for you.. Thank you for inspiring me.. I wish you all the best in life.. Godbless <3 

            
      Love,
        April