The close friend...

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After like 5 min of modeling  whit different clothes that Ashley threw at me whit a laughter  every time, we finally found the right outfit it was a black shirt whit a print from our favorite band called Black Veil Brides on and grey shorts. I also had a choker and my brown long hair was tied up in a bun.

My life always was complete when she was around, like kind of  filled, I did not have a drunk mom on the couch or a game addict stepdad when i got home when she was whit me. Then it was just me and Ash on my mind. She always made me forget (at least for a short while) the scars on both mine and her arm... It was no self harm in our life then, just me and her together for ever.

Whit her I feel safe.

The only people i could trust was Ash and my brother.

Like my brother... well he's a brother. He is annoying and quite stupid at times but when it really does matter I knew he will be by my side through  thick and thin.

Ok I got dressed and we went downstairs to my moldy kitchen i grabbed som Cerrys and got my boots on and we started heading outside. I gave Ashley some Cherrys and grabbed her hand in mine and we stared going in the schools direction, but as always we walked slow so that wed get as much time as possible whit each other as possible.

It was those moments I liked the most... When we just walked hand in hand on our way to school unfortunately those moments never lasted that long.

but those moments they could do anything talking, whispering, laughing our eyes out or crying. It did not matter as long as we did it together.

I have not gotten my first kiss or anything like that yet but I knew that when people asked me who my first love was id proudly stand up and say Ashley cuz I belive that there is different kinds of first love and I belive that she was mine!! 

I really love her and i'd be completely lost whitout her.