Tears Don't Fall

Prologue

One Year Ago

I was woken by the sound of my doorbell... ugh its morning already?!

I looked at the clock and blinked my eyes to check if my eyes were fooling me... its effing THREE IN THE MORNING!!!

I drag my ass of the bed preparing my lungs to scream at whoever was disturbing my beauty sleep.... why hasn't Cara opened the door? Oh yea... she's at a party.

Cara is my roommate and my bff since we were practically born.. not kidding.( I have pics of her in diapers but if I show them she'll chase me with a frying pan in one hand and a stiletto in another (she's done that before so I ain't taking any chances this time).

I open the door and find two officers outside my apartment... shit what have I done this time?

Wait.... did I do drugs without me knowing.. did I forget to pay the rent... oh god.. did I murder someone without knowing it? In my panic .... I screamed "Im too young! pleaseee I dont wanna go to jail... pleaseee"

The officers looked confused... So I didn't do anything...must be a first! The shorter one opened his mouth to speak but I interrupted him... again

"Wait is it Cara... She didn't do it I did it... I should be there with her in jail!"

Hey if your friend gets arrested you bail them out.. but if your bff gets arrested you should be in there with her... its a law!.. it isn't? Well it should be!

"Ma'am calm down... Miss stone hasn't done anything.... You might want to sit down while we tell you this."

"No its ok... tell me.. I can handle it"

Thats when I saw the "look"... the same look I've been receiving for the past year....pity! I knew what was coming... but nothing could prepare me for those five words...

"I'm sorry for your loss"

I felt my world crumbling under me... I slammed the door not knowing what to do.

I slid down and laid my head in my hands... not comprehending what just happened and I stayed there for god knows how long.

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I finally got up from my fatal position by the door the next night when someone rang the bell...

I opened it to find a note... It read "Miss me? It's fine don't... I'll see ya soon babe ;)"

That filthy bastard... He did it... I want to punch a wall and I do until I think I broke my knuckles.. but who cares.

I see a message from Cara's mom sending all the funeral details... she wasn't close with her parents so I'm pretty sure they won't be devastated.. they favoured her brother who's another douche.

I haven't cried.... I can't even believe what has happened.

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The day of the funeral... I talked to no one I didn't even make a speech praising her or give my condolences to her stupid family.

But... when they lowered her casket is when I jumped up and ran towards her... hugging her tightly.

She wore her favourite blue dress with her favourite pearl necklace and white stilettos... looking as pretty as ever.. but still and lifeless.

I sobbed and screamed " You can't do this to me... I can't lose you too! You promised me... You pr..pr..promised"

I thrashed the people who pulled me away and her parents eyeing me like I was weird.

I pointed my finger at them and threw curse words like it was a common thing and ran to my car.. tears streaming down my face.

I remembered all we talked. We were gonna grow old together and live next to each other... our kids would've become great friends... we would've cracked jokes and teased each other about our crushes and our boyfriends... she should've been at my wedding... as my maid of honour and I could've been hers.... We would have sat on our porches drinking tea at the age of 60 with our husbands and stare out at the sunset... We would've laughed until we cried... we would've fought and then cry together and become bffs once more... we would've made it into 20 years of friendship this year... I haven't lost a best friend... I have lost a sister and today I've lost everything I ever cared about.

The Universe is against me and tries to break me each time... every time it almost does she was always with me listening to me.. giving me a shoulder to cry on and now that she's gone... It has finally got what it has wished for... I'm broken.

But today I promise myself to never cry over anyone.... losing anyone else isn't gonna be as painful as losing all the people I have lost so far...

However sad I may be... My tears will never fall.

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