Delicate { On Hold }

1 | goodbyes & strangers

{ Amanda Seyfried as Arabella} 


you never stop loving someone , you just learn to live without them.

"Bella" , he whispered as he slowly cupped my face. "I love you Arabella" , he smiled.

His lips touched mine. The kiss was slow and tender. I encircled my arms around his neck.

"Bye Arabella" , he whispered and he slowly started walking away into the darkness.

"No Alex , where you going?"

I ran after him but he wasn't there.

"ALEX" , I shouted. "ALEX"

I ran towards the bridge and clasped the cold railings and there he was floating lifelessly in the water with blood all around him.

"Bella " , I felt someone shake me. "Bella wake up "

"Elliot , I-I- Alex the riv-I" , I cried and broke down into the arms of my older brother. He rubbed my back up and down and tried to calm me down.

"I'm sorry Bella , but he isn't coming back" , he whispered.

He was right no matter what I did or how much ever I cried Alex wasn't coming back.

Alexandra Williams , my childhood friend , my first crush , the love of my life & fiancee died in a car accident a week ago.

& he wasn't coming back home this time. 

***

"Morning Bella" , my mother smiled and kissed my cheek.

"Morning Mama, Morning Dad" , I smiled and sat down next to my father who smiled at me and caught my hand.

" Bella , the Williams have invited us for lunch today & they'd like it if you'd join them" , my dad told me with hope in his eyes.

After hearing about Alex's accident I didn't meet anyone instead locked myself into the room for days.

I refused to talk or meet anyone. I couldn't bear the pain , the pain of losing Alex.

"Sure" , I smiled.

"Great! , I'll call them up & let them know" , my mother smiled and placed a plate of pancakes with orange juice in front me.

I wore one of Alex's sweatshirts with black leggings and tied my hair in a messy bun.

The smell of musk and leather filled my nostrils and seemed to calm me down.

I wiped the tear that slid down my cheek and headed down.

The car ride was silent.

My older brothers tried to talk to me and distract me but I couldn't find the words to speak.

I felt numb.