No Kiss Allowed | Jikook | Yoonmin |

Chapter 22

Everything started with Jimin's father. The men swore he love him and his mother more than anything in this world, and maybe at some point he really do. But Jimin was little and couldn't understand it all. He only knew that at one moment the man was having fun with his son, building ships and cars, putting him to sleep with the most amazing stories, and loved his wife, kissed her deeply and holding her tight. At the next moment he left without even saying goodbye, hurting badly both of them.

After that there were another two mans in their life. Jimin's mother loved them deeply and Jimin himself was a kid. The thing he knew the best was how to love someone. And sadly, the three male figures in his life broke his little heart.

His mother also left him at some point. She didn't do it completely but she was rarely there. Jimin was only 10, but he learned how to take care of himself. He had to go through the hardest parts of life alone. He couldn't trust anyone, scared of getting hurt again. But he couldn't live alone. Humans aren't made that way. So the boy started living his 'double' life.

Before his very first action like the new Jimin, which was around the time he started high school, he promised himself that he won't include kisses in his relationships no matter how long and deep they are. Because kiss means love. And he didn't want to lose someone he love again. Yes, it was kinda stupid and he knew that in that way he was lying himself, but it was working for now. It was enough for his little heart.

"Jiminnie..." Yoongi didn't know what to say. The image of little damaged Jimin was breaking his heart, but he knew that the boy didn't want pity. And he sure didn't want to admit his love towards the younger and he was scared of negative answer if he ask Jimin if he love him. Yoongi didn't know what to do, but he had to say something before he dissapint the boy in his arms.

"As long as you want me in your life... I won't leave you" in the ears of the younger it may sounded as bullshit, but it was true.

"I don't believe it. Everyone leaves in the end. They use me for my body" Jimin raised his voice. He was hurt, he needed to shout, but it didn't matter because with the time he learned how to be okay with his life. "But it's fine, because mostly it's pleasurable for me too."

"Don't talk like that."

"It's true. Even Jungkook fell in love with my body, not with me." The boy sighed sadly.

"Then why are you with him?" the older wanted to ask so many questions, to say something that will assure the boy that he's far more than that, but this one was bugging him from inside and was the most important right now. He wanted to know why Jungkook and not him.

"Because I wanted to try something new. I like him and I guess I like to be used. It makes me feel like I'm good at something" a sad note could be heard in the little one's voice. He wasn't happy with that thought, but it was okay fine, completely acquiescent. This drove Yoongi mad.

"You're more than that. You're special, kind and sweet. You're a good cooker and house-keeper. I haven't lived in so good looking and clean place with such delicious food since I left my home long ago. You take better care of me than anyone else in my life had. And I saw you dance. You have a talent." Yoongi wasn't shouting but he raised his voice. He wasn't angry, but he wanted to make a point, to be heard and to stuck this in the younger's head.

About the other thing, Yoongi really saw Jimin dance. It was during the time Jimin was mostly in his room. One morning the older wanted to talk with the boy, but he heard the music and he opened the door a little, just enough to peek through. Yoongi was speechless. The younger was moving smoothly, with grace and passion. He was giving 110% of himself and It was mesmerizing. Since then the older used to watch Jimin every morning. The boy was so good at what he was doing, that Yoongi didn't think, even once, about something dirty. He enjoyed the masterpiece in front of his eyes.

Of course, now all inappropriate images started to float in his mind, but yeah, let's leave them there, for now.

And again. It was silent. Yoongi though that he wanted to show Jimin that he cared about him and that he won't leave.

"Hyung?" the younger asked after a few long but comfortable minutes of silence.

"Hm?"

"Can you keep this in secret?"

"Of course, Minnie" Yoongi was placed that the boy shared his biggest secret. He felt special I trusted. No longer he cared about winning over Jungkook. The only thing that mattered now was the sleeping boy in his hands.

NOTE:

Here's the new chapter. I know the idea isn't the best, isn't so new or original, but I'm giving my best and I hope you like it <3