A Rape Story

Jesse's Tears

Walking in my nighty; rubbing my eyes

My step dad's sitting on the sofa with his friend

He pats the seat in the middle; I sit

Shivering so cold; a quilt he lends.

"Jesse you love me don't you" a smile; his

Their breathe spurts weep

"Daddy you know I do; what is it?"

He smiles at his friend; his hand creeps.

His friend takes my hand; looks me in the eyes

Daddy's creeping up my nightie; cold hands

I try to pull away; grip is strong!

They look at one another; nod, something planned.

I feel my palms sweat; daddy's under my knickers

"Daddy I'm going to bed! 'Night" Pulling again

But their grip is too strong for weak me

I look at both; and ask, who are these men?

His fingers going up me; pulling away

His friend leans forward; a kiss? Why?

His tongue moving mine; my eyes squint

Lean back and away; "Why are you doing this?"

No answer, I feel the pain inside me; him

Chucks the quilt on the floor; me too

I try and scamper away, but I'm not fast

"O Daddy please, I love you."

His friend; pulling at my nightie

And my dad pulling my pants down

His friend pinning my hands to the floor

As my daddy lays himself on the ground.

I squirm; as daddy's friend pulls me up

And places me on top of daddy; thrusts within

I cry; I bite; I scratch; I slap; I fail

"O daddy please, you win you win!"

I can feel my skin rip; my virginity breaking free

I can feel the blood seep down my leg

"Daddy you're hurting me please"

I plead to him and his friend; not even a beg.

Daddy's laughing; why does he laugh?

His friend shoves himself in my mouth and moans

Tying my hands together; moving in and out

"Ride me Jesse" he laughs and groans.

They smile at one another; laugh too

They roll me over and spread me wide while

My Daddy sits on my face; himself again

While his friend talks and pushes himself inside.

I can hardly breathe; I gag for air

I cough and splutter; cry and weep

I beg and plead; but it's no use

They've already made me hurt and bleed.

I stare into his eyes; that look upon me

This is not my Dad; where is he?

If he was still here; would he care?

Would he actually even; see?

Finally they get off and lay me on the sofa

My cheeks blotch from tears and pain

They play with themselves; all over me

Rub it in; making me feel the shame.

Why Daddy? Please tell me why?

Dad looks at his friend; and waves him away

"Jesse I love you" he smiles and kisses my cheek; cringe.

"Is that all you've in your heart to say?"

He puts my nightie on me

And walks me to my bedroom door

Ever since that night; His friend

And himself every Friday come back for more.

"Night sweet Girl; you're my life"

Closing the door, tears swipe down my face

Still the smell of Him and His friend

Fade into me like disgrace.

I watch the Moon go down; the Sun come up

"Jesse its school" knocking at my door

I can't help but cry; weep in pain

Because I'm so scared he wanted more.

But one night Daddy took it too far

Daddy and his friend came back for one last shot

They were worried they would get caught

So he and his friend took me to a cemetery lot.

I was blindfolded and my hands were tied back

"Daddy please! Not tonight!"

Daddy and his friend both had their last fun

After that I tried to put up a fight.

I begged Daddy "Please no more!"

All he could say "Shut up you stupid whore!"

Daddy un-blindfolded me at last.

He said "I love you so much."

He went back into the car and pulled out a bat

"Daddy I swear I won't say a thing!"

I was dead

After only one swing...

~Jesse

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