The Awkward Bitch Speaks Up

"Attention Whores"

So recently, like really recently, I was reading this rant book. But first, let me say, that it was a peice of shit. And no, not because I didn't like her opinions, it was because she didn't...

BACK HERSELF UP!

The rants were short, typical and just, ugh, they made me feel like bashing a fucking beer bottle to my head. Now it's my fault too, I kept reading them..but what can I say? Everybody likes to see shit on the internet.

And when I mean shit, I mean like crap from a damn buffalo that swallowed an octopus covered in Fritos.

I'm so pleasant.

Anyway, that bitch of a book really got me fired up when one chapter was about "self-harmers that cut to seek attention."

Oh. My. God.

I read it, yeah, and it was shit. Especially one part where the author says how she doesn't understand how self harming feels good. So what I did is, I saw the comments for that little passage, and was suprised-well not really, to see everybody agreeing with her.

"I've honestly never cut before in my life and I don't understand how you can do that OMG! But I'm still going to say that attention seekers who cut are stupid for doing that, because I can't come up with my own original opinion and I'm a little shit face that can't try to see life through their eyes!"

Shut. The. Fuck. Up.

I got pissed. So I commented, however I didn't do it in a mean way, I try to seem as nice and respectful as possible.

Not because I'm fake, because I want to seem approachable to people, I'm awkward sure (mostly in real life, not here), but I love people, I like to talk too.

So anyway my comment went along giving people a more real understanding of how self harm works, I've been through it for years and I have TWO therapists who explain it to me with no bullshit.

So I kinda know what I'm talking about, I also gave my opinion on "attention whores" or whatever, and here it is for you guys:

THEY HAVE ISSUES TOO!

Who the hell cares what reasoning they had behind doing it! It's their bad decision, and they have every right to make it. I'm not saying self harming is good or that people should be able to do it. It needs to be stopped, it's an addiction, and any addiction is bad! What I'm saying is that people have the right to make bad decisions for whatever reason.

I mean they tell you all the time why people smoke cigarettes:

• because they want to be cool

•they're bored

•they're curious

• they see their parents/friends do it so, they're influenced.

Or

• because they want to cope with something

Hey! Guess what? Those are usually the common reasons why people cut too! And I know some people will be all like:

"But how is cutting cool!? And how do you get so bored you slit your wrists!? And just because your friends do it doesn't mean you have to do it!? And how do you get curious for pain!? And how is bleeding a way of coping!?"

And I agree, you shouldn't self harm for any reason, just like you shouldn't do drugs, smoke cigs, drink, or whatever dangerous addictive shit you do!

However, you don't know them! And you're never going to figure out 100% why they did/do it in the first place. Heck, sometimes they don't even know!

Just because someone does it for one reason doesn't make it any better that someone else did it for another reason!

It's still a stupid decision! No matter why you started! It will always come down to the same ending,

You'll get addicted.

So I don't want to here that bull-crap of "they're just seeking attention they don't have REAL problems!"

And you do?

Honestly? Somebody is always going to have it worse than another person. Always. Sure, it's tough and not in the same level, but it's the truth.

And they do have issues! And they deserve just as much help as they can get along with people with REAL problems, whatever that means..

Don't you think it's a problem to wanting to hurt yourself because other people aren't paying attention to you?

Heck! You see that all the time with cases of the kid cutting because his parents don't pay attention to him!

Don't you think that's a "REAL" problem!?

You know what's a real problem? People who are too thick headed to see other people reasonings for things.

Okay I'm done! Off to the next chapter!

Love,

Edith :)