A Girl and Her Dream

Chapter 3

""Feeling better?" He asked with a smile.

"A bit." I said turning my looks away.

Come to think of it, i haven't thank him for letting me stay in his apartment.

"Thankyou for helping me yesterday." I said again, but this time, he's the one who's turning his head away, yet he nodded.

"Uhm.. why did you call me here..?" I asked nervously.

"Uh.. I.." he said while scratching his head and looking down.

"Why?" I asked looking puzzled.

"C-can you..stay at my place a-again?" He asked nervously.

My eyes widen, shocked at the words coming from Mr. Jacob's mouth.

"W-w-why..? What?" I asked while forgotting how to blink.

I don't know but he seems down since my physics class is over. Maybe something happen?

"Nevermind, sorry for bothering you, Jane. You can go home now." He said softly while heading towards the stairs to go down.

"No, wait!" I said, grabbing his hand and stopping him from going down.

I don't really wanted to go home right now. So, maybe for another night in Mr.Jacob's apartment won't hurt right?

"I will stay with you." I said straightly, looking at his brownish eyes.

He smiled and we went into his apartment with his car.

"Is there something bothering you, sr?" I asked while we're walking to his room.

He stayed silent, not responding to my question. The thing that i noticed is that his face became down when i brought up that question.

"There is then." I said answering my own question.

We ordered pizza for dinner and went to sleep. He let me slept on his bed again and he slept at the sofa.

Around 2 am, i heard sniffing as if someone is crying. I peeked outside, where Mr. Jacob is there and found out that he's crying while holding his phone.

I walked towards him and asked, "what happened?"

He stayed crying and i peeked at his phone.

It is a text from the hospital saying that his mom has died.

So that is what bothering him.

I rubbed his hair and pull him close to me, he responded with both of his hand embracing my waist and hugged it real tight.

He hides his face in my stomach, because he's sitting while i'm standing. He cried hardly, and all i can do is rubbing his head and his back saying, "it's okay, everything is going to be alright."

I guess he really loved his mother for crying this loud. He didn't release his hand from my waist for about half an hour.

After he released his hand from my waist, i put my thumb in his cheek and erased his tears.

"This time, let me to take care of you." I said softly.

I grab his phone that he's still holding it and put it away, then, i let his arm in my shoulder and help him go to the bed.

I cover him with the blanket and sat beside him. And eventually, i fell asleep afterwards.

***

I felt so warm.
I heard somebody's breathing beside me.
Slowly i open my eyes and saw Mr. Jacob's face that is just an inch away.

"OH MY GOD!" I shouted, because it is my reflect when i'm shocked.

Mr. Jacob awake with his eyes widen, "what? What happen?"

"Uhh.. i'm going home now, bye." I said rushingly with my morning face, messy hair and still wearing a school uniform on saturday.

I walked slowly to my neighbourhood and found out someone is standing in front of my house.

That someone is my mom.

When she notices me, she quickly ran to me and hugged me really tight.

"Oh my god, Jane, where have you been!?" She said worriedly.

"Why do you even care when you're going to kill me soon anyways." I said bluntly.

"What are you talking about?" She asked looking puzzled.

"You're going to kill me right because i kept on dreaming nonsense and force you to give me money! Don't put a mask, mom. I know everything."

"You heard us arguing aren't you?"

"Yeah and congratulations, you lost your daughter, Mrs. Wilson." I said walking pass her and enter the house, go to my room and locked it.

I jumped to my bed and cried loudly, covering my face with my pillow.

I hate the fact that our family is not rich, i hate the me that has a dumb brain, i just hate everthing.

I grab my cutter and started to harm my hand. I made some scars in my right hand and it wasn't that bad at all. In fact, i feel fantastic. I got addicted and made many scars.

The pain in my chest were bigger that these scars.

I felt asleep afterwards.

***

My eyes were very swollen when i woke up. It's 3 pm and i don't even know what to do with my life. The pain in my hand were felt right now. It's so painful.

I grab a bandage and wrap it in my hand.

I feel like i have to wash up, so i open my room's door slowly and peek outside.

The cost is clear, so i went out and take a shower. It's very refreshing though. But the pain in my hand is very painful when it touch water.

After showering, i decided to study for physics. When i see physics, it reminds me of him, Mr. Jacob.

Is it okay for me to fall for him? Although i'm sure he won't fall for me. It's okay right? Afterall, it's just a silly high school crush. It won't last long.

And so, i decided for liking him for this time being.

I lost track of time studying physics, and it looks like the has pass midnight. I went out to the convnience store to get ramyun because i haven't ate anything since noon.

I tried to reach a cup of ramyun but i can't reach it.

Suddenly, i felt a warm sensation in my back, and reaches for the ramyun.

"Here." He said.

"Mr. Jacob?" I said, startled at what i just see. I bet my face looks like a steamed crab right now.

"What are you doing here, Jane?" He asked with a little laugh.

"Just grabbing some ramyun because i'm hungry.." i explained.

"Oh and, you can call me Jacob when we're not around the school, Jane. Our age range isn't that far, you know." He said with a smile.

"O-okay, Ja-jacob.." i said blushingly.