Promise || m.yg

extra chapter

You can just not read this.

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Yoongi

10.25.20

My life beens great. Fortunately, I found a job which concludes music and I work with a group of interesting people now. They are always kidding around. I like to be with them. I just don't show it, that's it.

Haneul and I decided just to stay as friends and we still hang around together. We still meet up sometimes and do the things like when we were in highschool. I met her fiancee too.

Han Eunhoo, Haneul's fiancee. He's great. That hyung is great. Because he always treat me to eat out time after time.

It's been a great life. I don't know what I did to recieve such great things. I have a happy life, healthy life. Almost everything I can ask for.

I'm already getting old. I'm already 27 years old.

And I still want to see her.

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11.02.20

I did mention that I want to see hee. But that would be impossible. And it's stupod to think that someday -without dying- I can see her again.

I know she died. I saw it in front of my eyes. How her body stopped moving. Her hands dropped to her side. How the beaps rang again and again.

And how she looked so peaceful.

She doesn't have to bear with the pain anymore. She's free.

From pain.

I sighed and I bumped into someone.

"Sorry."

I knew that voice.

It's her.

I turned around to grab her hands. I want to see her face. Her voice sounds like hers.

But no.

It's just someone who I didn't know.

"Sorry." I apologised. Ah, I'm so disappointed. I thought she's finally here.

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11.18.20

I know it's stupid to do think and wish for something like reincarnation.

It's impossible.

But I kept on wishing for that to happen.

Like a cliched story.

I know I don't believe in Santa and Christmas. But please, just for the last time. Let me hold her.

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12.24.20

I waited for the rest to come pick me up in this cafe.

Oh. How dare me call it this.

This is our meeting place before.

I sighed and looked at my wristwatch.

It's already 11:56pm but they still haven't arrived. Maybe they forgot? Maybe they are just late? But we said we shall meet up here when it's 10:00pm.

But nah. I'm extra patient for today. Since it's Christmas, many kids are here with their family. So I should be happy?

I sighed amd preapared to stand up but someone entered the cafe. I looked at ir because the bell jingled.

As if the time stopped, it's like that.

Like the butterflies flew freely inside my stomach.

It's her. And she's looking at me lovingly.

Everything doesn't matter for now. As long as she's here.

I stood up and ran towards her. I hugged her tight, like not wanting to let her go as if I did she'll turn into dust.

She hugged me back and I cried in the crook of her neck.

"I missed you..." I confessed. I'm such a sobbing mess right now. She smiled and wiped my tears.

I was about to speak again but she shushed me.

"Savor the moment, Yoongi." She said. So I did. I kissed her. I'm happy that she's my first kiss.

She isn't my first love, but she'll be the second and the last.

I wish and hope that this would last forever. But time won't let me like it's saying 'as if'.

When I pulled away from the kiss, I opened my eyes.

My eyes widened and saw that she's not there anymore.

But instead, a ceiling greeted me.

I'm sad. But happy that I got to see her again for the last time.

Christmas is real.

I'll remember that.

Thank you for letting me touch you for the last time. I'm going to treasure it until I'm buried six feet.

I love you, my dear friend.

We never really said that we're a thing, but to me, I'll be always be a lover to you.

Always. Even if it's hard to love someone you can't touch. I can't even see you.

Except when dreaming.