10/19/17
everything is fine until I'm crying on my bathroom floor at 3 am
everything was fine
then the bough breaks and my emotions fall
everything I've been holding in
every emotion
hopelessness
self loathing
sadness
anxiety
guilt
I cry and cry and cry until I can't anymore
I'm not crying
I'm fine
I'm just tired
nothing
I feel nothing
the next days are a blur
I don't do anything
there is no point
responsibilities start to pile up
showering becomes a useless chore
motivation caught the last bus to anywhere other than here
I'm exhausted
I can't get out of bed
but I can't sleep
I lie there wondering if its even worth it anymore
but I'm fine
really
"you're so lazy"
"get out of bed; you're not sick"
"you're so overdramatic"
"if you just tried to be happy"
I am trying
its not working
I'm slowly dying
please help me
sorry
I'm fine
I'm just tired
I'm fine
