I walk into the school the next day with a heavy heart. I knew this was my last day, for who knows how long, seeing her. It broke my heart that I won't be able to see her beautiful smile lighting up the room, well in my case hallway because we didn't have any classes together. I won't be able to hear her angelic laugh which is like music to my ears, the way that she flips her hair out of her face. How she stands in the hallway by her lockers every single morning and between classes with Dinah, Ally, Normani, and a girl named Ashley, but she goes by Halsey.
I don't care much about people, I keep to myself, I get all my stuff that needs to be done and that's about it. I genuinely don't care about anyone else besides Lauren in that school. I don't like the idea of friends really. Hanging out on the weekends or after school, it's not my cup of tea really. I'm more of a watch movies on the weekend and eat a shit tone of junk food that I really really regret it in the long run.
Anyway, today I decided to bring Lauren an arrangement of Amaryllis, red Carnations, and white and yellow Hyacinth. All the flowers represent my feelings toward Lauren, which I'll admit to her for the last time, for god knows how long. I also wrote her a note, that comes with a beautiful heart neckless and bracelet that I found, which reminded me of her, and how amazing it would look on her.
"Hi Lauren," I tell her with a bright smile. She looked beautiful today, she was wearing this oversized sublime shirt, which is one of my favorite bands, and her hair looked like it wasn't brushed and messy but she made it work, she had her left wrist was full of these bracelets, and finally she had on these leggings that were kind of see-through and perfectly attributed her features. All in all she looked absolutely flawless. I loved when she wears the simplest of clothing, I loved when she didn't try hard to impress people like all of the girls at school.
Again, just like every other time, which I should be used to by now by the amount of times it's happened, but it hurts like a bitch, she rolled her eyes and huffed out a "What do you want Y/n?"
"Well I brought you an arrangement of flowers," I told her with a smile, I pulled them from behind my back and handed them to her. "They all have different meanings if you want me to tell you!" Man I really hope she says yes.
"No," she told me in a bored tone, "I don't care anymore than I did yesterday," she rolled her eyes.
"Oh, okay," I said dejectedly, "well, you look really beautiful today Lauren," I told her with sincerity so she knew that I really meant it.
Lauren blushed and looked down before catching herself and told me to fuck off before slamming her locker shut and walking away.
Wait, what just happened? Wait, did she just fucking blush? She just fucking blushed, holy balls, this is the best day of my entire life.
"That was really sweet of you Y/n," I hear a light voice tell me bringing me out of my daze, I look down to see who was talking to me, Ally.
"Yeah, well she doesn't seem to think so," I told her with my head hanging down.
"Look Y/n," she sighed, "I know that Lauren can be a bit of, well a bit of a bitch, excuse me for my language. But I do know that Lauren cares about you, I know that she has a weird way of showing it, but she does," she told me.
"Ally I know that you're trying to make me feel better, but please just don't my hopes up," I told her with tears in my eyes, she was about to cut me off but I kept talking, "Look, I'm leaving, probably right now, I don't want to deal with this anymore, but I just want you to give her this, please," I gave her the note and the gift bag with her bracelet and neckless.
After I gave her the two objects I turned my back and walked away, I heard Ally yelling my name, but I didn't turn around.
I walked out of the doors of South High School, and never looked back.
