Catholic • ferard

part 1

I may attend a Catholic school but, im anything but a Catholic. I'm sure if anyone knew I'd probably be whacked to death with a crucifix, im just gonna come out and say it. I'm sexually confused. I have a huge crush on a boy in my class but I've had a girlfreind before.

The boy talking about is Gerard Way, the bad kid. Jesus fuck is he hot. But, he's also really sweet. I've been studying him alot latley, staring at him and thinking about him. I'd love to kiss a boy, but if the word got out of definetly be kicked out of the school. a

Im pretty confused as to why Gerard hasn't been excluded. His grades aren't all that high, (can't say mine arent either though) and he pretty much refuses to do anything. Especially PE. I hate PE, im in a room full of near naked guys. I get changed facing the corner of the room so I can't see anything (jesus, im a horny gay fuck). Mabey, Gerard refuses to do PE for the same reason! That just hit me.

I'm at a lunch table now, Gerard is over there,
fuck I just sighed out loud while staring at him, even worse, my voice cracked. Shit he looked at me, what do i do!? I try to play it cool and make it look like i was looking out of the window. He's coming! Gerard walks over to me and says "hey, you're a little quiet arent you?!" Followed by an adorable chuckle. "Uh, yeah, kinda, I guess" dammit I'm so fucking awkward. I try to imitate the cute little laugh that he did. "Do you wanna come, sit with us?". (I'm litterally bright pink at this point) "yeah, sure".  I walk over to his table and sit down next to a Portuguese looking boy with amazing hair. I feel the urge to pee but I'm too shy to say so I just hold it and stare at Gee.

"So where are you from?" The boy with the nice hair says
"Oh, New Jersey!" I love NJ so much
He opens his mouth to speak but just at that moment my dumbass self says "i need a piss I'll be back"
The bathroom was clean for once, that was weird. I wash my hands (Like a good Catholic boy) and head back to the table. The lunch bell rings, I didn't even get to talk to Gerard.

I walk to PE. I want to spend some time with my crush so I tell the teacher I have a sprained ankle and pull out a note I wrote in different hand writing (I planned this out). The teacher says, "fine, go sit with that boy" and proceeds to point at Gerard. I sit over at the bench and try to look cool, (even though im panicking inside and im sweating more than I'd sweat when acctually playing sports) "hey man, I didn't catch your name" he says while scratching his eyebrow. In an attempt to be cool I say "I didn't throw it, the names Frankie" God that was cringey, He seems to be impressed by it though and even chuckles. "Nice name, Frankie. I'm assuming you know my name from the numerous teachers shouting it at me.". I giggle like a schoolgirl.