I've always been the kind of girl who ignores love in front of my eyes. I have no reasons why. Is it even necessary to love another person with all your heart for all of your life? Can one person stay in love to a partner for a lifetime and stay true to his/her vows? If so, then why are there divorces? The definition of love is an abstract thing and you never really know what its like until it comes to you.
I always felt that love was stupid. It gives people all the heartaches that some couldn't bear.
Yet things are never permanent in this world and the only constant thing is change. My own perspective changed. My feelings changed. All because of one guy. We made forever seem possible for two years of being together. There were those happy memories and there were sad. I believed he was the one but proved me wrong. He left without a trace and shattered my heart to pieces. I tried everything to reach him but failed. He totally broke the string that connected both of us. That was when I ended up hating love. I became a coward since then, afraid to love. Goodbyes are always painful and it becomes the most painful when the one you love just leaves without saying a word. It makes you feel worthless and used. It's pretty ironic how one person who became the reason for your happiness now became your sadness.
For months had I grieved for our loss. For months had I longed for him to come back. For months had my hopes failed. For years had I believed in forever. Then I woke up one day and realization dawned on me.
He never is coming back.
Adios, Sayonara, my love!
