Time

Chapter 1 (Edited)

Sometimes, I can't help but wonder; why I wait? Wait, for a man who will never comprehend how much I have given up for him, just so I can live my happily ever after with him, my king. I should've went with him, all those years ago. However, I didn't because he promised he would come back to us, I will never forgive myself for letting him go so easily.

I'm becoming fearful, the separation from my mate is finally beginning to take a toll on my body; I would gladly succumb to death, but it's not just me I have to live for. It's becoming difficult to push away those dark thoughts. I was told I would feel a dull pain that I would never become accustomed to, much like depression, when I separated from my mate. But this pain is agonising, it's the kind of pain nobody could be prepared to face. Sometimes I have doubts, however I understand that I have to trust him; because I know he'll come back to me.

When were younger I remember he would sneak out of his room, in the orphanage so we could sleep together. Each night he would do this, just to protect me from the memories of my childhood. So I could get a good-nights sleep. But he's gone now unlike the nightmares which render me fearful of the days ahead. So I only sleep when I have to, and that's enough; I hope.

There are only two things I would change. The first thing I would change is letting him leave us, as soon as he left I knew letting him go was a mistake. And that was, no doubt, a selfish decision on my end because our daughter has had to grow up without a father. I know, he would've stayed if I had begged him to. The second thing I would change is not finding him when I had the chance; now my body is weak and I have to focus all of my energy on taking care of our daughter. However, even i can't change some events. Even though my past is grim that was something I could never control.

He's my mate, and for that i'll always love him; I'll always love him for the nights he would stay up with me and wait for me to fall asleep. But if he doesn't find his way back to me, soon. I'll be forced to reject him because our daughter is my priority.

I cannot leave her, not yet. When I first laid eyes on my beautiful daughter, I made a promise that I would always protect her in both life and death; and I do not intend in breaking that promise, ever. Even at seven years old she's already been exposed to evilness I wished to protect her from however, I take pride in saying, that has never crushed her spirit or tainted her pureness.

Fate has ultimately forced me to choose between my daughter and my mate. However I do not resent her for that because life entails hardships and I know the moon will bring us back together eventually; whether is it's for better or worse.

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