It has been a week since I met Jacob and he has completely ignored me at school. I even waved once and nothing. I hadn't heard a word from him since that night. Until today that is. He DMed me on twitter.
Meet me same place same time. Iandude
I almost didn't go. But here I am walking to the park. I saw Jacob and walked to him. As he spotted me he pulled me into a kiss. I pushed against his chest trying to get him off me. He pulled away.
"Hey."
"'Hey '? That's all you have to say. You think you can ignore me at school and just kiss me when we are alone No it doesn't work like that." I shouted.
"Look. I am sorry."He said.
"Sorry is nothing. I could have you squashed on the Internet."
"And I could have you squashed in real life."
"I ALREADY AM! " I yelled and turned walking away.
Tears streamed down my face as I jogged home. it started raining be cause the world hates me. I knew what I had to do.
As I walked into my house. I set up my camera.
"Hi guys this is a sort of serious video. "I said. "So when I was born my parents died on the way home so I was given to my aunt. She took care of me until I was twelve leaving me alone in her house never looking back. In sixth grade I got heavily bullied about my looks despite my schools 'Peace and Love ' policy. In seventh grade my best friend left me and I started cutting on my thighs. No one saw because no one cared. I stopped in tenth grade even though now in eleventh grade I am still bullied. I am terrified of my secret coming out because if it did the bullying would only get worse. So I urge you please I know how many of these things there are out there but please stop bully that kid who has no friends. The one that no one likes. So that's all I have to say. Bye Guys."
I watched the veiws come in and everything was good until a comment came in.
Hey my middle school has the same Slogan does that mean Bladed goes to Spotswood?
A million other comments came in after that. I was shocked.
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I kept my head down walking into school. But none the less I heard the whispers.
"Did you hear? "
"Any of us could be Bladed."
"She probably is really popular."
"Bladed Outcast got nominated for Prom Queen."
I kept quiet on my way to my locker only to find someone infront of it. Jacob.
"Well you Fucked up." Jacob smirked. He moved allowing me to get to my locker.
"Oh so your talking to me now? " I said. Pulling out the things I needed for first block.
"Of course. Hey I am sorry about last night. Friends?"
"Sure. "I said shutting my locker and turning around.
At lunch I sat alone at my normal table that is until Jacob came over with his friends.
"Why we sitting here?" a snooty girl asked. I recondinzed her as the one that walked into math class and announced that she was Bladed Outcast. I saw the entire class including the teacher silently flip her off. Her name was Laura.
"Because Katie is my friend."
"Chyea right." A dude said. He was the one that proclaimed that he was in love with Bladed.
"I am sorry what did I ever do to you?" I mumbled not expecting them to hear.
"You were born." Snooty Lier said.
"Hey," Jacob said standing. "Leave her alone."
"You just like her because you think she might be Bladed Outcast." Jackass dude said.
I got um and ran. It was true. Jacob only liked me because of Bladed. I burst into tears. Why me? why did I have to start those stupid videos in 8th grade?
I started singing.
Love is small
its crazy
take me back
hold me
wrap me up
heal me
I am small I am needy
hold my hand and breath. me.
(not same exact)
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I looked at my camera and had tears streaming down my face. I cleared my throat.
"So,"My voice cracked and I cleared it again." a lot of you have noticed that I go to Spotswood and I will explain to you why I am so upset.
About a week ago I got a private message stating my name and asking to meet with me. I being the idiot I am went. the guy knew exactly who I was. He didn't threaten me. But I knew him at school. I have no idea how he knew I was Bladed. I am so terrified of my secret coming out. That's why I keep my face hidden. I am sorry. "
I finished the video. I cried myself to sleep.
