My Biggest Mistake

Prolouge

I was breathing hard, trying to control my shaking body.

"We can't go on like this," he paused to rub his eyes, "I can't go on like this."

"I don't understand Kaiden," I replied curtly, trying my best not to show any emotion, "What did I do wrong?"

He shook his head and sighed, "No Isabelle, it's not your fault. It's just...I don't think we were meant to be."

I could feel the anger boiling slowly inside of me. I can't believe he had the audacity to tell me that our year-long relationship was meaningless. He didn't have the right to throw it to the side and forget about it.

"So you never saw a future with us?" I could feel my voice rising, "I've been dating you for almost a year and you never thought we were gonna go anywhere? Are you for real?"

Kaiden's eyes darkened as I began to shout. "See, this is what I mean! You constantly get upset and make a big deal over every, little, tiny, thing! I can't go on like this, fighting with you every single damn day! Can't you just be a grown up for once?"

"Oh, I'm being immature?" I scoffed, standing up. "How about you, huh? Letting me believe that you loved me and then tell me you never had feelings for me?"

"I never said that!" he objected.

"Well you're definitely showing it!" I retorted, suddenly feeling defensive.

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I had loved him with all my heart and he was always my number one priority. Did he not feel the same way?

After a long silence, he finally spoke up. 

"You know what?" he said quietly, almost a whisper, "I definitely don't love you now."

He stood up, grabbed his coat and stormed out, making sure to slam the door behind him.

The slam of the door left a ringing inside the room that I tried to hold onto, as if it was the only part of Kaiden that I had left.

There was an eerie silence after he stormed out and I collapsed back onto the couch, letting all the emotions overwhelm me. The rhythmic beat of droplets of water falling from the sink faucet cooled me down, allowing me to relax for the first time in forever. I let the feeling of emptiness flow over my body and take control. 

It felt like as if Kaiden leaving also took a part of myself as well. I let the tears run down my face and sobbed silently into my knees, my body shaking violently. The only thing that I could think of was to get him back.

I blindly reached for my phone, wiping my stubborn tears away with the edge of my sleeve. I took a deep breath to steady my voice and dialed Kaiden's number. 

Hi, you've reached Kaiden's voicemail! Please give your message after the beep...

I hung up the phone and sighed.

God, I had fallen too deep for him. I still loved him.